Today was definitely a good day. However, the weather proved to be a little different than I expected. Another hot day with the heat index being over 100 degrees the past two days. I stayed indoors. Anyway…
Today was cleaning, laundry, and food prep day. I had my shower at 2 pm this afternoon. The shower girl with the same name as mine but her name ends with a Y and not an I like me, helped me with my shower today. CSE came down around 6 pm – a half an hour late of course, again – will be leaving around 930 pm or so tonight so I can go to bed and be up by 7 am before my 745 am shower and go to work. Yep, tomorrow is my first day of work and tomorrow I will have to take the time to report to Social Security I am working now or I will have my IDS worker let Social Security know for me. I do not need anymore added stress in my life.
Today…I had almost fell into the anxiety trap! Anxiety tried to play its nasty game with me while I was talking to a friend on the phone. My heart began to beat real fast. Right now, recovering from my latest anxiety attack – that is why I am playing catch up on Dear Diary once again – anything can set me off into another anxiety attack real easy right now. I was able to stop my heart from racing and beating super duper fast by doing a deep breathing exercise. After CSE leaves tonight, I am going to do my meditation exercise and go to bed for the night.
4. Company over from 6 pm – 930ish pm
5. Meditation & bed time.
1. Shower at 745 – 9 am
2. Work ?? – ??
4. Writing & Facebook
Good night and God bless.