I have not been writing in my diary here since the 4th because of the fact between the 6th – 12th I was not feeling so hot and the anxiety was so great that my world was a little emotional. I will fill in the dates of what has happened between the 4th – 12th at at a later time to update everything in my little world. It has been an emotional roller coaster since Thursday – Monday for me it was not at all funny. The anxiety has been so great that the pain in my body was horrible, sleep was not easily found. I had pain in the vaginal area so bad that it causing me to be in tears.