I am going to say good night and God bless. I will come back some time tomorrow.
I did decide not to have CSE down at all tonight to watch any of the movies we were planning on watching this afternoon. The final decision was made around the dinner hour. CSE and I talked via text on our cell phones and we apologized to one another and we accepted one another’s apology. She also told me that she does believe in God and that He is a loving God, and that she has been feeling abandoned by Him and her family. I texted her back and told her that God did not abandon her. I also told her that I will not talk to her about religion anymore…not that I did before…but we have talked about God openly before. I told her that I felt her saying what she said about there not being Christianity and that there is no God upset me very much so to the point of my blowing up at her. So I took the rest of the afternoon and evening alone here in my home with my laptop, Facebook games, TV, and IPod. The other day I had found Sudoku for IPod and downloaded it and played it for a very long time finally figuring how the game actually works and runs. Earlier today I had learned that there is a game for the IPod called Farkle – a game My evenin I definitely addicted to online – and downloaded it as well. Tonight I found some math and algebra apps to download. I believe my IPod Touch has been used a lot in the past couple of days. My evening is okay but I do believe my day could have been better and I definitely could have handled the situation with CSE tons better than how I handled it. AARRGG! Neither CSE or I are going to bed angry and upset. I will see her again later – Wednesday if possible.
My afternoon with CSE started but within two to three minutes CSE starting rating and raving that someone stole a DVD of hers and that this is no such thing as Christianity and no God. When she said that “there is no God”, I had lost my cool…told her “to get the hell out of my house”…and she did. When it comes to someone saying there is no such thing as Christianity and that there is no God, that is one subject (religion) that is hard to talk about about.
Honesty Is the Best Policy
To be very honest here… there are three topics I find difficult to talk about because of the fact everyone has their different views, is religion, sex, and politics. I do have to admit that, not sure if it is age or just maturity of the subject matter, that I am a little more open about sexuality and sex when discussed or I read about it on someone else’s open diary to the whole world online, but still a little closed about some matters regarding sex yet.
We Talking/Texting One Another
CSE has texted me to apologize and ask for my forgiveness. We will go from there. She also texted me that NMS (our surrogate mother) had found the DVD. I texted CSE back that I do forgive her and that she please forgive me for screaming at her after telling her that I will no longer talk or discuss religion with her from now on. We are in the talking/texting stage of our feelings. I got a text back from her and she forgives me as well.
I am not sure, yet, if I will have her down to watch Memorial Day type movies today but it might still happen yet.
I got a little more sleep than I have ever on Friday and Saturday night – dozed off while CSE was still here until sometime after midnight some time and I do not remember how long she was here actually because I was tired when she left and I felt back to sleep.
I am watching the Smurfs. I am going to have CSE over this afternoon to watch movies historical movies like Lincoln, Gettysburg, and other “wartime” movies)