I thought, before I really began my day…which started at 630 am in the morning, and say Good morning. Today is my cleaning and laundry day, and then I have an appointment this morning…then the rest of the day is all mine and Bing’s. So far so good this morning evening those I did not sleep the greatest last night because I was kind of pissed off at a neighbor for getting pissed off at me for shutting off my computers and modem so he could not access the internet while I was gone. This gentleman, remembering he stormed off out of the community room in front of me and three other tenants and leaving the building a few minutes later with his jacket for some odd reason. I have never seen this gentleman so cold and mean and nasty looking ever until yesterday and wish I never did see such coldness. This gentleman was caught looking at pornography on his computer using my wireless network a few days ago and that really pissed me off. So I am I so pissed at him? Why can I not be relieved that he was pissed off at me for once because he did not get his little way and acted like a child who did not get his way whatsoever for something? I have no idea really. LOL… I have had EVERY right to turn off my computers and the internet for a while while I was gone for the afternoon and we were expecting some possible serious storms yesterday afternoon and I was NOT going to allow my computer’s hardware and modem to get fried in case a bad storm came our way. I am being safe and comfortable in my own skin. What I decide to do in my own home is my business and I have to be safe and comfortable in my own skin and not afraid of what other people think or do in their own lives. Right? Right! This incident bothered me all afternoon yesterday and last night – I even discussed the situation with PS, my counselor. I feel real uncomfortable being in the same room with this gentleman now – alone that is – but with three other tenants in the same room with me and this idiotic jerk, I am okay and feel safe. This man is gross and idiotic! Why look at pornography? HE NEEDS HIS OWN INTERNET SERVICE!!! DANG!!! The creep has not paid his dues to me for the month of May and June yet anyway. I am no longer taking money from this idiot and I am going to get a password on my modem as soon as I can get a hold of a dear friend of mine!!!

I have been in needed to vent for the past 24 hrs or so now and I have done so. What has been on my mind has been done and now I can go on with my day as usual and go from there. Cleaning and laundry will be happening real soon as my company will be here shortly. It is time for me to sign of for the morning and I will be back later…hoping with happier thoughts now that venting has been done. Please forgive me for ranting and raving but I needed to vent this morning before heading off for my day for a while. I have a semi-busy day today and will be glad once afternoon has come and I am back home in my own place doing my own thing without too much going on after cleaning and laundry, and appointment with my foot doctor. Heading off for now and will be back later today sometime. Good bye for now…

I once really liked MEE but lately I have not really liked him. This gentleman has been a friend of mine ever since 1991 when we met – around that time anyway – in college. But I have not talked to him for several months now and do not care what goes on his life anymore. He is supposedly engaged to a gal who has mental problems and he now has mental problems. I still cry and want to scream because I have lost a dear and close friend of mine and MEE was very helpful and kind to me until we stopped communicating and … he has been acting so strange. His behavior is what stopped me from communicating with him. I do not care what goes on in his life anymore and he can live his life the way he wants. He will never be allowed back into my life ever again as long as his behavior has changed for the worst – suicidal and engaged/marrying the mentally ill gal he is with today and tomorrow. He has been on my mind lately and the memories of our now dead friendship come flooding into my head so often it is scary and demeaning in my mind. I even have this horrible feeling that a certain friend or two still keep in contact with him as I have that suspicion popping in my head today after seeing a certain thank you to someone who I do not care for anymore on a friend’s facebook page. I do not trust ANYONE at Garden Court anymore or anyone associated with Garden Court anymore and I do not intend on stepping foot into that place ever again in my life – those people I once called “friends” there are sick people who love living in drama whether they make it themselves or drama finds them. I do not feel sorry for those idiots over there – even MEE and his fiancee! They are gone out of my life FOR GOOD! If a certain friend is in association with MEE to this day and I find out it is true, I am sure we are going to be parting company as well in the future before too long as well.

Please forgive me for this day is a day of vent after vent today … off all days actually today is a “venting day”. Saw the neighbor who was pissed at me for turning of my computer and the modem this afternoon while I was leaving for an appointment – opened the door for him so he could get his groceries in safely and I out to the car that was taking me to an appointment. hE DID NOT EVEN SPEAK TO ME OR SAY THANK YOU FOR OPENING THE DOOR FOR HIM. I talked to KR about it when i got back from my appointment and she told me that is how he is when he is pissed off at someone. Anyway, talked to my friend PV today, called him at work at Best Buy, and he told me he will call me back tomorrow. What a friend! I hope I can get a block on my modem for my safety and comfort after today but we will have to wait and see what goes on after tomorrow…I hope. I will get rid of this jerk from using my internet service or anyone who can access it from the community room or their apartment close by my wireless network. We shall wait and see. Anyway, this man, will no longer be trusted alone in my world anymore. If I catch him looking at pornography on his computer in the community room, I am calling the cops and letting them know ASAP and go from there telling them the truth what I had to do to stop him from using my wireless network without a password IF I can get a password on my modem. Only CSE is getting my password so she can get online via internet BECAUSE she helps me and Bing on a regular or daily basis even though she does make me mad a lot lately too. She is a trustworthy soul EVEN THOUGH SHE HIDES THINGS FROM ME WAY TOO OFTEN. She knows full well that i am very intelligent and can read into things easily and she is very careful to show her true feelings but most of the time it is so obvious…very obvioous indeed. Anyway, it has been confirmed, today, that this neighbor very upset with me because I chose to turn off the internet. He is a jerk and a nasty individual. A demanding individual on top of it actually. Do not trust him anymore and the idiot lives in my former apartment on the 3rd floor now? Ewww! Gross!

After my foot appointment with Dr. A, I came home and sat around watching TV, reading, and playing games on my facebook page. Not a whole lot really going on this evening. CSE just left for the night in hopes that she will be getting together with a relative of hers outside of town tomorrow for the day if this relative does not cancel on her. I have no major plans tomorrow either except for KH coming to give me my Wednesday afternoon shower and from then she will be over for a while after work to visit and help me out since CSE will be gone for the day – at least I hope CSE will be gone for the day with her relative. I personally think that I will have a fairly quiet day – hoping that my friend PV calls me tomorrow afternoon to help me with putting a password on my modem so this neighbor can no longer access the internet and look at porn on his laptop downstairs here in the community room across the hall. I am still royally pissed off at him for what happened yesterday and earlier today – he was acting like a child who did not get his way whatsoever and will not from now on. I am NOT going to be an accessory to his looking at porn on his damn computer if I can help it and I am going to fix that. The idiotic jerk has NOT paid me for the month of May and June to use my wireless network anyway. Still not going to take money from that idiotic jerk anymore either. He is a nasty thinking man. He should move. Anyway,,,

It is getting late and all i have been doing was vent ALL day long and still doing it for some reason. My life is not a bowl of wipe cherries right now I can say that with delight because i am not at all perfect whatsoever. CSE had my keys this afternoon and ate supper here tonight for me to be safe and comfortable because of what happened yesterday and today. This tenant really shook me up enough that I can not really get it off my mind for some reason. My safety felt threatened for a while but I have it back now. This neighbor idiot is plain crazy and nuts and someone to be feared. Why he lives here now is beyond me. I want him out of here just as bad as the management does. He is a creep. He is VERY sick and gross. i am glad I will no longer deal with him after tomorrow. Venting has been rather numerous today! Wow! My life is definitely not perfect indeed. Whew!

I am going to say good night and God bless and come back tomorrow sometime. I have my shower tomorrow around 1130 am and 12 noon or so and then KH will be over after she is done with work for the day. She never called to let me know she was coming at 1130 am tonight but that is okay i guess. I got a slight break from her as well as she from me. Bedtime is just around the corner now for me tonight and my world is getting tired now anyway. Today has been one big venting day for me for some big reason and way. I am okay but feeling real pissed and hurt by one man who acted more childish than anyone I remember at my age. This man scared me to the point of fear being sucked out of me for the time being. I know it is getting late but I am going to be watching Criminal Minds: Suspect Behavior with Kristen Vagness who happens to be one of most favorite actresses on the show as well as Criminal Minds with all the actresses and actors my favorites. Kate Jackson played the mother of one of the characters in the show and she was the ambassador at the time. loved that airing for the year 2007. She was amazing! Love Kate Jackson and her acting. She is very good in my eyes. Leaving for the night. Everyone sleep well and good night and thank you very much for taking the time to read my rants and raves, vents, and repeats of an imperfect life I live. Even though it is yet only Tuesday night and we have three days left before the weekend arrives, I am definitely looking forward to the weekend. I have to call TB about a ride to church this weekend and see if a ride is provided for me yet. I will take care of that tomorrow.

Good night and God bless!