Happy Thanksgiving!!!!

Last Night

I am still kind of tired from last night because I was up twenty hours before finally going to bed and it was a rough night for me as sleep was hard to find. My little roommate is my brother pup Shadow who sleeps in the corner in a kennel at night with a sound spa/maker nearby to keep him soothed and comfortable at night. Both Shadow and I had a rough night because he is not used to the idea of having a roommate and since my bed is in his bedroom, we scared each other in the night a few times. Sleep was difficult to find but I do have to admit that I am looking forward to today. My mom, a friend of hers she works out with, and I are having a girl’s night out tonight.

Girls’ Night Out

My mom, her friend, and I went out to eat at Rojas (real Mexican) to eat and then to a play titled Proposals that was written by the playwright Neil Simon. It was an awesome play! Two of my mom’s friends were in the play, and their acting and time were well spent – $10 per person – and it was $30 for all of us (the three of us – my mom, her friend, and me) The play began at 7:30 or so, so we took our time eating at Rojas. I do not remember what my mom had for supper, but I had spicy pork with red sauce, refried beans, and rice. I had two soft taco shells that i put my meat, beans, guacamole, and sour cream. I ate most of my meal but I could not eat all of the meat. I love spicy, hot Mexican food.

I have been up since 3 a.m. this morning and traveled to Albuquerque, New Mexico than from Albq., I traveled to Carlsbad, New Mexico where my mom and her husband, and Boston pup Shadow live. I did not get into Carlsbad, New Mexico until 10:30 MST/11:30 CST in the evening which made it almost a 20 hr day for me, and I am sooooooo tired that I can barely feel my feet, had major difficulties getting on the dang charter plane, and my bottom had gone numb so many times I could not feel it, but I am at my parents’ home now. I will be heading to bed here shortly. I am tired, numb, and kind of warm from traveling for sooooo long. WIth New Mexico being an hour behind Wisconsin time, I do have to admit that I do not have jet lag, but I do admit I WILL NOT travel from Albq., New Mexico to Carlsbad, New Mexico NEVER AGAIN!!!

I believe, now, this minute, things are calming down on the home front of anxiety. I did not have any panic attacks last night during the night so I believe things are calming down. I have most of my concerns answered regarding the trip now, and have taken the time to talk to my mom’s husband for a while this afternoon but I do believe he does not know about the anxiety I have about the trip yet unless my mom shared that information with him. I did text my mom’s husband a little bit that I was anxious about the trip this time for some reason but talking to him and texting him has helped.

I do have to admit that having my period, at times, really stinks, and it can be a problem from time to time, and today was one of those days that I personally feel that my day has been somewhat or more personal or emotional than I really expected it to be. I was rather bothered by my emotionand s today — tears flowing down my cheeks, unknown feelings have played a major role today ALL day long. With Cuddles being dropped off later than expected, I was so happy to know and see through a text that JSL was okay and … the idea of her being late was not because of the fact she was in an accident or anything serious but I do have to admit I was worried until I heard from her she was going to be late because of car troubles. Before I heard from her through a text, I could not understand what was going on, but later finding out why she was late made it seem like a whirlwind of emotions. I even called KH twice and did not hear from her right away and I personally thought that she was upset with me … … no thanks to the fact that I have my emotions running amok leaving me in a whirlwind of some sort — a horrible sort to be very honest.

Today was, emotional as it was, okay otherwise. Despite my feelings rather going amok this day, I watched TV, read, wrote in my journals, talked to a couple of close and dear friends on the phone before it got real late, cat sitting for the night while my BFF of my life is dog sitting and her cat Cuddles does not like dogs whatsoever, and got some medical questions answered, and my day is not a total loss because of my emotions. Today was not a total loss.

A Possibility

Winter is not that far away now and I do believe that my emotions are amok because I have my period right now and the weather is coming to the point of getting cooler and even more colder. I do not like winter very much but this year I am going to muster through the cold days without letting my emotions run away from me to the point of losing control. I will be okay and that is not a possibly but the wholehearted truth.

Cuddles is here and has been here before noon — around 10:30 or so JSL got here with Cuddles. Cuddles is spending the night here while JSL and her husband watch JSL’s parents’ pups Muffy and Buddy. So now that Cuddles is here, I am not worried anymore. Apparently JSL had a flat tire and it needed to be fixed before she could even drive the car and I am glad that she is not hurt like I first thought, but JSL’s text helped relieve the worry I had because I know that JSL is always on time or she will call or text — like she did this morning. While Cuddles is here. I am just in one of my moods to be on the computer ALL day long as Bing is right behind me on top of the recliner back – away from Cuddles as Bing scared Cuddles earlier and then Cuddles scared Bing not to long afterwards. I just think this time the kitty kids are going to stay away from one another and not cause any problems. Right now, about 5 hours later, they are in separate rooms and staying away from one another — a good idea — I am disappointed, though. Cuddles is going to be here ALL night and that is still okay, though.