I have been thinking about my friendship with CKR and how I feel it has been a lie the second time around. I realized that, the past couple of days now, what has been holding my feelings hostage, and what I am about to say has been holding my feelings hostage will shock anyone. At the beginning of our friendship, not knowing the truth about CKR at the time, I had given her my spare key for my apartment so when she came and the door was locked, she could let herself in without me having to get up so much when the pain was so great and walking was tougher. I have to get my spare key back!!!!