I have been thinking about my friendship with CKR and how I feel it has been a lie the second time around. I realized that, the past couple of days now, what has been holding my feelings hostage, and what I am about to say has been holding my feelings hostage will shock anyone. At the beginning of our friendship, not knowing the truth about CKR at the time, I had given her my spare key for my apartment so when she came and the door was locked, she could let herself in without me having to get up so much when the pain was so great and walking was tougher. I have to get my spare key back!!!!
My day was a good day. I feel tired and so I am going to log off the computer for the night here shortly. Tonight is not going to be a late night tonight. I am going to bed early tonight and before falling asleep, I am going to watch some recorded television programs. I did get a phone call from CKR and a knock on my door earlier but did not answer the phone or the knock on my door. I am still not in the mood to see her yet. I am still not happy with her about going behind my back to a friend of mine – JSL – to be told to stay out of CKR’s business. I have, in a way and after thinking about it, staying out of her business has been nothing but asking her honest questions, and so her telling my friend JSL to stay out of CKR’s business is to stay out of her life. I am working on getting my spare key back from her so NO ONE has a spare key of mine anymore. I know who my true friends are and that is all that matters.