Talked To My Caseworker

WIth all that took light this weekend and as calm as I was about what occurred over the weekend, I did talk to my caseworker, MM about what happened. She did tell me that I took control of the situation and did what I thought was right from what she had been told. We talked about what happened over the weekend at length and even after the talk, I still felt calm and in control of my emotions and world around me. I am still, today, not ashamed of the fact that I had to take control of my life and the people who are in it. Yes, I suspect and strongly assume that I have made a few people mad but those people’s emotions are not my concern today or tomorrow. They will realize that I have control of my life and have control of my world and despise it greatly. No one will never walk all over me and control me. I do not like liars, cheaters, and the telephone game anymore … as the telephone game not a fun game as an adult — people end up getting hurt and my dear and closest friend did get hurt badly. I also believe that those people who hurt my friend badly enough even committed one of the worst problems ever by lying to the police which is obstructing an officer and they should have been charged for the crime.

With that said …

Certain people no longer exist in my life. There is no turning back. I wish not to relive this.

Still No Regrets! SERIOUSLY…

After what happened yesterday and what happened to my dear and closest friend, I still have no regrets of what I did yesterday. I HAD to get away from the negativity that has caused my anxiety and depression to flare up because I could not control the episodes. Two years ago, as a reminder, walking away from negativity was done so before … walking away from negativity again could be done again. I did it yesterday and I do not have any intentions of turning back and rekindling those friends. With no regrets in the wings, I do have to admit one important fact about no regrets now – a large burden has been lifted off my shoulders and mind to the point that I was immediately exhausted from the largest emotion of my life — fear. I am sorry my dear and closest friend was deeply hurt by certain people in our lives and never will I leave her behind as I will always go back and find her to protect her from hurt today and tomorrow. I will always make sure we are al;ways together and that we are following each other.