After getting home from my afternoon, I took a break and having company over until 4:30ish, I got my laundry ready to go so I can do it. I got my laundry started a few minutes before 5 p.m. and finished by 6:30 p.m., then ordered dinner of pizza from Pizza Hut, and then doing my own thing. I am tired and about ready to go to bed for the night. I do have a lot to say tonight but I have no time to do that right now. Because it is getting late, I am not going to write about anything now and may not write about it in the future. There is one thing that I wish to write about before retiring so my mind can be at ease and be able to sleep all night long. I personally think that I will not be getting my second wind tonight, now, or whenever. It is going on 9:15 p.m. now and bedtime will be 10 p.m. tonight. So here is what I want to get off my chest and mind before retiring for the night.
My Nagging Thought – Right now I wonder about the people who live here in TM with me have come from another planet to live on earth to invade it and become what a person calls inhabitants and rulers of the earthlings…something like that. Why do I wonder? is a question that I have yet have to totally understand but what I do understand at the moment is TM has a hold on all the tenants in one way or another and tenants have trouble with tenants, and I have had my share of trouble with tenants who have lived here and are living here today. TM is one place with its darkness and problems … even two people I have learned to love and appreciate are planning on leaving here to go elsewhere because they are sick and tired of some of the tenants who have caused nothing but trouble and drama, and because of that there is no way that one of those two people would stay here if those tenants who have caused trouble were evicted or asked to leave. My heart is aching to the point … why do I even get close to people anymore these days when my heart alone gets broken into a gazillion pieces and can not be picked up and repaired with some of the pieces too small to put the heart back together entire … leaving the heart handicapped. Yes, my heart is feeling the brokenness of the world that is happening in TM. Even rumors and gossip play a major part here … this close knit place is. I am SICK and TIRED of tenants not being able to get along like one big happy family … my heart wanting peace and tranquility in this cruel world – a world I know is not always safe unless God is in our lives but not everyone believes in God like I do. I want peace and whatever comes along with peace these days.
Even though today’s entries were a play by play action of my day, I do have to admit that today, so far, has been VERY good despite how tired I am feeling at the moment. Got home from my counseling appointment around 3:30 p.m., I have yet to do laundry and I CAN NOT procrastinate on doing laundry anymore today so in a few minutes I am heading to the laundry room to do my laundry for the week BEFORE another week goes by me in a flash of a second and I miss something because of the fact I blinked one too many times, lol. Anyway, my appointment did go very well … I LOVE IT when someone knows me well enough that they understand my antics. it takes A LOT for me to allow someone to know me very well and get to know me inside and out.
Well, I need to get going and get my laundry together and get my butt in gear. I will be back … not a threat but a promise since today is a play by play kind of day for me.
It’s Monday … “What do you expect?” LOL
Have a few minutes here before I have to go. Not a lot going on in my world at the moment. It is quiet for the time being for once today. I can not wait to come home and get my laundry done. Bing and i hear something going on outside but can not quite pinpoint where the noise is coming directly. Bing is looking intently outside at the direction of the noise and I do not know what he sees at the moment. It sounds like the trash and recycle dumpsters are being used but no one is out there in that direction … so I believe Casper the Friendly Ghost’s Uncles are out there being menaces and idiots right now, lol. Now Bing has changed his direction and looking at something else.
Shower taken, dressed and ready for my day, here i am playing on Facebook, taking a walk and visiting neighbors who happen to be in the lobby around the corner of my home now…the 1st floor life has its perks, lol. i will be leaving for my afternoon counseling appointment within an 1 1/2 from now wanting to go and spill my guts out to my counselor — NOT! Really I want to stay home and take a nap or two and get caught up on sleep I have lost during the week of being sick with a bad cold and laryngitis. The energy I am experiencing right now is not my own as I move about in my own world, mind, spirit, and body, thank goodness for the energy that has been given or donated by God himself for me. I am not dreading it or anything, but after my 2 p.m. appointment, I do have to do laundry … yep, laundry … that dreaded chore. I do not like doing laundry.
Despite the lack of sleep I had last night — getting awakened by my CPAP machine leaking and setting off the alarm, my coughing and hacking from my cold and laryngitis, I am up this morning at 8:50 a.m. getting ready for my shower gal to arrive and then get ready for my afternoon counseling appointment at 2 p.m. and me leaving at 1:30 p.m. when my ride arrives. I do feel a little tired but my tiredness is manageable along with my day….I plan on going to bed early….yeah right, lol. Anyway, my morning is not too bad. Whew!!