Another Weekend Has Come and Gone Already!!!

Another weekend has come and gone already and Monday is soon to arrive which means another week of appointments (if applicable), school homework and studies, chores and errands to do are coming up rather quickly. In my week ahead of me, I have two appointments — counseling and a doctor’s appointment, grocery shopping, class and homework and studies, is in my week ahead. This weekend, drawing to a close rather quickly, has been okay but not 100% the greatest to say the least. I had company and have enjoyed the time and company with my neighbor and old time friend CKR but sleep has been not enough for me. My CPAP machine keeps beeping at me because their a leak somewhere from moving so much, I have a cold that the cough wakes me up, and the hours, minutes, and seconds have come and gone watching television in and out of sleep. That is the weekend I have been having. Having laryngitis the past few days as well as been a downfall for me because I LOVE to talk, lol. My voice, even though it has improved in the past 48 hours since Friday has gotten better, I have to admit that it still crackles and squeaks from time to time, lol. I do not like laryngitis at all, either. Anyway, despite the lack of sleep, having company over everyday for the past two weeks, this cold and laryngitis, my weekend was not a total washout as it did have its fine and good points as well. I just want my voice back…that’s all.

A Personal Thought – Before my friend left for the night she had made a phone call to someone she knew and from the phone on her end, which I could hear, it was a phone call she made I pretty much dreaded. In the phone call she defended me when it came to the other person and I greatly appreciate it but I do have to admit that what happened between CKR, this other person, and I happened a long time ago and we have grown up a lot since then. I just wish that someone, this other person CKR was speaking to would drop it and stop being so hateful about things. I am a forgiving person but when a person holds a grudge against you, it seems like an eternity and a lifetime of hatred and discomfort. I do appreciate CKR defending me, too. It shows that growth has happened between her and I and forgiveness has truly played a role in our lives. Anyway, this other person has a right to his feelings, too and I won’t hold that against him. I have a right to my feelings as well, too.

Now with CKR gone for the night I am heading to bed. I am tired even though I am beginning to see I am getting my second wind, and my anxiousness is trying to beat me up big time. I am yet not sure if the phone call CKR made earlier tonight has bothered me more than I shared my thoughts with CKR about after she got done with her phone call. Probably so, too. Anyway, I have a fairly big afternoon coming up here and my shower gal is coming at 9:45 a.m. in the morning … this morning since it is 12 midnight now.

Good night.

Update on TM

I really can not say much about TM right now but I do have to admit that we have two tenants who have moved back into the building since they have moved out on in their lives and then decided to move back in. A gentleman who lived in 303 or was it 305 moved back into the building into my old apartment 308 when I moved to the 1st floor’s accessible/handicapped apartment. Another neighbor/friend moved out when she had gotten married but since then her life has changed has moved back into TM on the 3rd floor. We have established or re-established from years ago when I first moved in. We had a little falling out a few years ago.

Anyway, people moving in, and people moving out … either they are getting sick and tired of what is going on at TM or their health issues have caused them to move elsewhere. At one point, when I lived on the 3rd floor in #308, I had contemplated on leaving several times because the stress levels have gone up and down to the point of making things unhappy for me and the trust of several of the tenants have dwindled down to only 3 to 4 people living in TM but since I have moved to the 1st floor into #110, happiness was found again and the stress of living on the 3rd floor has left my mind, body, and system to the point that I can now leave and come back at leisure without a worry of wanting to come back or that feeling of dread. I do have to admit, though, since October 2009, with the move happening so fast, I did run into an emotional rut and had to take a month off of school to get situated and comfortable again. But the happiness has not left … living on the 1st floor has become a blessing in disguise for the most part for me … and now when I go on the 3rd floor I can feel the tension and the stress level rise in my system knowing that there are tenants up there who are troublemakers and do not understand that rules here are rules set for everyone and we have to abide by those rules. TM has many tenants who have walked many walks of life and everyone has their own story as to why they are here but it has come to the point of staying in your own apartment now for many — even myself unfortunately. Living on the backside of the building does have its perks.