Once again I am falling behind in writing in my diary here …. at least I am feeling that way and I can be totally wrong. I am feeling behind anyway. How in the world am I going to get caught up? Tomorrow is going to be the first day of April so it can be a start of getting caught up … maybe. My day is not filled with lots of stuff and I have a lot of time to spare to think about this and that and other things. That is definitely a problem with me. I have so many television shows to watch that have been recorded from last week yet that have yet not been watched! I am falling behind somewhere and I cannot quite pinpoint it. This week, even though it is halfway through as far as Monday through Friday is concerned. I cannot wait for school to be over with as far as July 5th is concerned — 2 days AFTER my 40th birthday. See…I am thinking all the time … Even when i am asleep, my subconscious is constantly going and I have some type of dream — good or not so good — or a nightmare. Sometimes I wonder if I am living a nightmare with some of things that go on around me, lol.

It is 2 p.m. now and here I am here wondering what in the world I am going to do with the rest of my day. This week is an easy week for me — an easy week with no appointments this week, but next week I have an appointment at 2 p.m. on Monday and an appointment on Wednesday at 11 a.m., and an appointment the following week on the 13th. This week is my leisure week. Right now I am watching Dr. Phil — an episode that was on at 10:30 p.m. last night, and I love the show even though some of the topics are not of interest to me.

Here I am over thinking…

I had company over for only 30 to 40 minutes this morning helping me with my daily life skills. After LB left for the day, I realized that I needed a day for myself with no one coming over in the evening so I took a day for myself and asked CKR not to come down today after 4 p.m.. I did not even take any phone calls until after 7 p.m. when my shower gal called to let me know when she was coming Wednesday morning. Otherwise I did not do anything with anyone. Bing and I ended up having a day for me and Bing.

Today is my mom’s birthday! Happy Birthday, Mom! I hope you have a good day.

I overdid it yesterday as my body is a tad bit on the sore side today. Even my bowels are acting up a bit today and I am having hemorrhoid issues today…ouch! I have not issues with my hemorrhoids in a long time and now I am dealing with them again today…ouch! I hope tomorrow will be a better day for me! I hate having hemorrhoid problems!! Anyway…

I decided to sleep in and put my homework aside for the morning and early afternoon, and began my homework assignment after the supper hour, enjoying the day, afternoon, and early evening watching television and snuggling with my Bing Crosby kitty.

The Sleep In Moment – I felt like lazying around this morning and snuggling with my Bing Cosby kitty. Actually, for this particular day, I did not want to get up for my day at all or worry about my homework, but knew that by 10 a.m., I had better get up get started for my day, and that is when i have noticed that my body was a tad bit sore from the week of working about and out.

The Rest of My Day – The rest of my day was sitting at home watching television, surfing the web, and taking it easy. CKR did not come over today at all because I did not want company. In fact, I did not want her to come today so I told her to wait until tomorrow … finding myself staying up late to do some homework and decided to work on the rest of it tomorrow. I just did not feel like having any company and I did not even answer the phone to anyone except for family if they called, but no family called. The phone rang a few times and upon checking who was calling, I decided not to answer the phone. I was in one of my moods. I did call CKR back when I could, though.

Today was a very busy day today. As a matter of fact, I had my shower in the morning, got dressed and ready for my day by 11 a.m., had an appointment at 1 p.m. and 2 p.m. this afternoon, then I took the rest of the afternoon before dinner to do some school work before heading out the door to have dinner with a dear friend of mine at Texas Roadhouse, and after supper, we went to Wal-Mart to do some shopping for myself. My friend CKR came down before I left to go out to eat to borrow the computer to do some research on her family tree. After I got done eating out and shopping, I came home and put my items away, sat down, and watched television while I rested my feet after being on them all day long. I went to bed fairly early…

finding myself having had a great day, afternoon, and evening.

Where has time gone today?? In every direction in my book/life. Just got some homework done today a few moments ago and now waiting for my friend CKR to arrive for supper tonight. There are moments I don’t like eating alone so we are having dinner together tonight. We did last night as well. Anyway, I had my shower this morning, got dressed for the day, got online for a while and ended up taking a nap in my recliner, and now I am just waiting for supper to finish cooking for the night. My day escaped me this afternoon due to the nap…whoops.

I am not a very happy camper right now. The reason for not being a very happy person right now is because I had gotten only 4 hours of sleep last night…a step up from no sleep at least…and then I get a phone call at 7 a.m. from MEE and I did not answer it. He calls my cell phone first and then my home phone; I did not answer either phone. He tried calling a while ago and then texts me asking me if I am mad at him. Well, to be honest with you, yes, I am mad at him right now and the reason for being upset with him is something I will not discuss here as it is a very personal reason. I did not even answer the door/buzzer system this morning when my buzzer buzzed; I finally realizing who was buzzing me and I gave myself a V8 on the forehead. I am. not happy with MEE for calling me at 7 a.m. either. I am going to let MEE figure things out for himself that I am done with our friendship relationship at this time until he realizes his actions and attitude about life needs to be changed. I can and will say this though…I am not jealous of him being in a loving relationship with a woman but the relationship he is in is not healthy and is dangerous. That is as far as I am going to go in my thoughts about MEE at this time.

It has been a very long day for me today because I have not found sleep for the past twenty-four hours. It stinks and it happens to me often enough these days. I am in my last week of class for 3rd class away from being done. It has not been totally quiet around here, either, and sleep (a nap) has been hard to find as well. I hope sleep comes by soon enough. I am tired and wanting to get some sleep. Being tired and not sleeping well has made it a LONG day for myself. I will be okay, though. Having sleepless nights does happen often when anxiety and anxiousness play its ugliness and again I am getting over a bad cold, cough, and an laryngitis episode. I had gotten a phone call from my friends RB and JW wanting to come over tomorrow in the afternoon.

Sleep is not easy to find right now …. been up like this before but i really need to get my sleep soon! I can not concentrate on much right now. I have one more week before class is over entirely which is the 29th of March. I have two very important projects for school that have to be done this week — starting tomorrow.

I cannot sleep!!!