So far so good plans have not changed for the day here. My friend RB is here for the day until her husband gets off of work. Our friend and RB’s roommate is not here this time because she went out of town for New Years with her family in Racine, Wisconsin. I have, as selfish as it may sound, RB all to myself minus the fact that Bing Crosby is getting attention from her while she is here and that does not bother me at all. RB and I have time for ourselves and we are having Milios sub sandwiches tonight for supper which is my treat tonight after all the times she and JW came over with food to share the last three times they have been here in the past three or so weeks now. I was hungry for sub sandwiches tonight anyway. YUMMY for my tummy! I have also been online ALL day long…with RB here but I intend to get off here soon so RB can get online for a while tonight before she heads back home tonight. I will be back online later … after supper. Bye for now.
Yes, I am still up. Can not sleep because of the fact that I had taken an 1 1/2 nap instead of an 10 minute nap like I had first planned. Yes, it is after midnight here now but that is okay. I have had something eating at my heart since December 12th and it won’t leave me alone but I am not going to write about it again now or ever because what happened on December 12th is long gone and over with now. Just my heart still aches over the idea of what happened due to the fact that I first trusted this person but now can not anymore. This person is so influential for one and I can not influence her anymore even though I have been told by many people that I am a good influence for this person — a person who is slower in thinking but not considered a retard but a mentally handicapped young woman. Who this person chooses to hang around with is not my problem anymore than who I hang around with is this persons anymore … at any given tome. Yes, my heart still aches and it is very bothered by what was founded after the Christmas dinner but one’s upsetness is not my problem since the ball is not in my court to play back. My heart will always ache for this person because I care about this person more than she wants or cares to know right now and that may change over time now that I have decided to not have nothing to do with this person at this time due to our differences have changed the relationship I once had with this person.
If I did not write about this tonight I believe that my heart would have had a very heavy burden.