I am getting sick and tired of the rainy weather and the fear of the lights going out again is racing through my mind since yesterday. I know the fear I have is so common and ordinary in my panic state but I do have to understand that this fear is all Satan trying to keep me in a panic state. I will be okay. I have to keep myself busy in order to get away from the fear of things that plague my life. It is not so bad really. I am not in the mood in the mood to be defeated anymore, seriously. I am sick and tired of certain people — a person actually — who always needs to have a man in her life in order to be complete. Once again, unfortunately, a relationship is on hold between this person and her so-called boyfriend. I wonder for how long this is going to take before I hear again that this person has her boyfriend back in her life. We shall see … me, myself, and I that is. It is not so bad. I have to remind myself that I am the one who needs to change things if I want to change things, right? I might have to dissolve a certain friendship soon foor good this time. We will wait and see.