What Has Been Eating Me Alive??

I can surely tell anyone what has been eating me alive…that’s for sure! The fact that a friend has been discovered to be a liar and someone I cannot any longer trust or even believe has been eating me alive to no end. Also, the heat has gotten to me to the point of dehydration that I have been, excuse me for expressing myself openly here, peeing on command. I have been dehydrated once before this and I didn’t register the second dehydration episode until yesterday when I had gone into Urgent Care at a nearby clinic to have an urine specimen done to check for any urinary tract infection because I had symptoms. Come to find out, no infection, which is a good thing, but I was having the symptoms. I realized that I was dehydrated has come into light, focus as some say, and I beat myself up for the cause as well. The fact that a registered sex offender has been coming into the building has been dating a tenant, my so-called trustworthy friend I no longer speak to as of Saturday. Ewww! Also this apartment of mine has been a little bit more cluttered lately…oops! So, a few things have been eating me alive lately. It seems to never END!!

Still Symptoms of an UTI

The symptoms of an UTI exist so I went to the Urgent Care again. Had the urine specimen done and checked and I am clean so no UTI has occurred. I am frustrated and concerned here.

Around the dinner hour I have realized that I am dehydrated and I have had the symptoms once before. Time to get out the electrolytes!

Wonderment

I am now wondering who is going to be next to die who is famous in one way or another. So much has occurred in the past several days that makes some people wonder. Ed McMahon, Farrah Fawcett, Michael Jackson, and Billy Mays died not too far apart from the others. My heart still goes out to the families of their lost loves of today’s TV world. The question comes into mind a lot these days. Death is a occurrence that we can not avoid of course, but it has been happening a lot more now that I am getting older. Wonderment is one thing I have everyday of my life now. Oh boy!

Emotions Whirling

I have had some insomnia issues going on here since Tuesday and last night was the first time since Tuesday I slept decently and it felt good to have some sleep. Ever since Tuesday my emotions have been a roller coaster ride after another from Tuesday to today. Honestly, I could scream and cry my eyes out, which I have been tearing off and on all day long since I have woke up this morning. I was awakened from a phone call before 9 a.m. and then fell back to sleep and sleep til my another call came in … that is when I decided to get up for the day. Now I am tired and will be heading to bed shortly. Have an appointment tomorrow afternoon at the Wisconsin Job Center just down the street from here and I want to be awake and alert … and have a good day tomorrow. Then I have an appointment Tuesday morning with my sleep apnea doctor. I just have a lot going on this week!!!!!!!!!! My emotions are whirling still but starting to calm down. I am tired now and will be heading to bed here now. Good night and God bless.

OH MY GOD!

JT HAS ALLOWED DW BACK INTO HER LIFE. SHE HAS LIED TO ME ABOUT DW ALL THIS TIME. I AM SERIOUSLY PRAYING AND THINKING OF DISSOLVING MY FRIENDSHIP WITH JT NOW SINCE SHE HAS ALLOWED A REGISTERED SEX OFFENDER INTO THIS BUILDING. OH MY GOD! I AM SO HURT AND MY HEART IS BREAKING IN MANY PIECES NOW. I AM ANGRY, HURT, AND AFRAID NOW. I DON’T CARE IF THIS REGISTERED SEX OFFENDER HAS DONE HIS TIME IN JAIL FOR WHAT HE DID OR DID NOT DO. PAPERS DO NOT LIE AND SOMETHING DID HAPPEN YEARS AGO AND HE HAS DONE SOMETHING WRONG….HE IS NOT ALLOWED IN MY APARTMENT OR TO TOUCH ME! I DON’T TRUST THIS MAN NAMED DW OR HIS SO-CALLED GIRLFRIEND JT ANYMORE. THEY ARE OUT OF MY LIFE, MY WORLD, AND THEY BETTER RESPECT IT. I WILL NOT ALLOW LIARS OR IDIOTS INTO MY LIFE ANYMORE. DANG! WHAT IS WRONG WITH JT! SOMETHING IS MISSING!

WITH THE ANGER THAT I AM EXPERIENCING TODAY HAS BROUGHT UP AN UNDERSTANDING AS TO WHY MY FATHER GETS SO UPSET WITH ME FROM TIME TO TIME AND THAT IS THE COMPANY I KEEP!

Today

Honestly…what can I say about today? Nothing much really. Did have my Bible study this morning but that is about it. Pretty much a low key kind of day. This heat has really gotten me down a bit physically. Emotionally I feel good for once in a long time. Keeping close to home and away from certain things in life now just because I need to get stay away from negativity. My world is just full of uncertainties for some reason. Either it is I am in company with the wrong kind of people or I just get myself in certain things I get so emotionally wrapped up about. Honestly, it is small world but yet very big for one little person.

I did have company for a bit this afternoon. I did not expect this company, outside my morning Bible study. The company was okay.

Today was one of those days of uncertainty though. I hate those kind of days but did just fine.

I AM GOING TO SAY GOOD NIGHT AND GOD BLESS.