I am now believing that someone, a friend of mine, is jealous. It does not seem right to me to have this friend telling me that my college is being investigated and will not be a college much longer when I have learned yesterday that the college I am attending has creditation and financial aid does back the school up. This friend always mentions friends of hers who has attended the same college I am now attending. I wonder, along with the belief of my friend being jealous, if her friends have had bad experiences at the college or believe everything they are also hearing from other people. I have looked online about investigations of colleges and my college did not come up in the research. Honestly, the belief of jealousy being in involved, I wonder, the fact that I have my bachelor’s degree in accounting and she does not, or the fact that she does believe everything that is being told to her because the college she attends wants students to attend their college. I feel my friend has gone too far!!! This has been going on for a while now – since I began the college again in October.

I do not have the ability to fight anymore anxiety attacks. My health is not taking anymore anxiety now. I get sick so easy now and it takes me a couple of days or so to get back to a normal living, and those anxiety attacks are bad once I can not control them after a certain level.

I am not in high school anymore!!! People need to grow up.

The past couple of nights, so unlike tonight thank goodness, I could not sleep very well. This evening, while having dinner with my friend JT at my place, she told me WHY I could not sleep the past two nights very well. It was all BECAUSE of the Ginseng is Pepsi Max! Whoops! I will not drink Pepsi Max at certain times of the day anymore for that reason. At first I thought it was because of the caffeine rush I was having those two days but guess not, lol. It was all BECAUSE OF THE GINSENG! LOL. I am okay tonight. Planning on retiring to bed here shortly. It is kind of past my bedtime anyway but I needed and wanted to get caught up on a couple of things online before retiring. I took a three hour nap this afternoon so I am caught up on some sleep. Good night and God bless all of you!

Not much really going on right now really. Been busy all day long but not a whole lot was done in my home. Helped, or at least, kept my friend JT company while she did her laundry this afternoon so I was not holed up in my apartment all day long. Got back from the laundry room and had a very loving Bing Crosby, lol. Right now he is sleeping in his favorite rocking chair. Bing snuggled and cuddled with me for a while, enjoying every moment of our time together. He loves to snuggle and cuddle. Bing even got to a neighbor of ours he has not seen in about a month and he enjoyed her company. I was glad that this neighbor dropped by to see us both for a few minutes.

I am up late again tonight but that is okay.

I am up late tonight. Have Bible study tomorrow as well as an appointment at the Job Center tomorrow afternoon. No rush to go to bed early tonight, lol. As for being up late this is the first time I have stayed up late. It is 10:30 p.m. here in Wisconsin right now and bedtime is soon arriving as I am heading to bed shortly. This is my last entry of the day and evening. I am going to sign off for the night and hopefully come back tomorrow — if not soon.

For over an hour there has been tears shed – not of pity or shame but of “way to go” and a story of love. The story, about a young girl who was born with her legs fused together, had really made my heart really think of how blessed this family was to have a daughter beat the odds of the condition she was born with and have lived a young, bubbly life that there shared smiles, tears, and communication that many families do have during crucial times. This story, about Shiloh Pepin really touched my heart in a way that I had to call my mom, with tears welled in my eyes, to tell her that I was very blessed with all that happened to me since I was a child growing up whereas this little girl who is called the “mermaid girl” because of her fused legs needs to have more medical care than I ever did in the twenty-one years since the kidney transplant I had at the age of seventeen. My heart goes out to Shiloh in a way that I cannot explain openly in a verbal sense because the words do not form easily. I want to meet Shiloh and meet such a pumped up little girl living a normal life. Way to go, Shiloh! God loves you and appreciates you for you!

Ahhh, the weekend is here. It is almost over as well as it feels like it just begun.

I know I have been fairly busy not to have an entry written everyday lately but today is one of those days I am catching up on my diary a bit. School has been very busy lately and I have decided to take a week off of my studies and return on the 24th. Having a few days off from studies means a lot to me at this time because I have been under a lot of stress lately … to the point that my world is very reserved right now for only a few people. Even my time outside the home has been limited. I had my appointment on Thursday and I got some news I did not expect … in the long run my kidney transplant is still going strong but I found out that I have other issues that are going on. My coordinator will get back to me next week when she talks to the doctor about what is the next step for the other health issues that have crept up in the past year. No big deal otherwise I would have been hospitalized on Thursday. At least I am home.

I feel tired and worn out and I did not do anything yet today! I am recovering from yesterday’s doctor’s appointment apparently. As I have already said, my appointment went fairly well. There are a couple of concerns and my doctor is on top of the concerns as of right now. I have Swiss cheese for bones and my parathyroid is out of whack but my doctor is, like I said already, on top of the concerns. My kidney, after 21 years and at 65 years of age at the end of the month, is doing well despite the other problems I have found out. My appointment was quick, easy, and done within twenty minutes and even waiting for my lab results (blood work) did not seem to take forever even though 45 minutes passed before my met with my kidney coordinator and was discharged.

Right now I am working on recovering from yesterday’s appointment. I do not seem to have any energy whatsoever right now period and that is unusual for me! I will be okay otherwise. Just tired and ready for relaxation.

My appointment went fairly well and I got back by noon.

I do not feel very nervous about going to the doctor this morning but I surely do have to admit that getting up early (5:30 a.m.) is something I am definitely not used to yet, lol. I have a doctor’s appointment out of town today, this morning, and I am hoping that I am home before late afternoon. I know it is going to be a long day for me having to get up early this morning. No complaints.