July 15

I had a fairly good day today … seemed long and I was tired by 3 p.m. and ended up taking a quick nap on the living room bed with Bing, and the amount of sleep had gotten is not really known because i just dozed off during watching a mini-marathon of Law & Order and watched a couple of recorded programs before hand. I think I am tired because of the fact that my hormones are raging a bit right now and I feel physically drained but this will pass once I am finished having hormonal changes. I hate these weeks of raging hormones but I am woman so I do not expect anything different. I am planning on shutting off the television early tonight and retiring to my bedroom early and read and go to sleep. I have nothing else to do right now anyway except surf the web and see what’s going on but I am a tad bit tired but not as tired as I was five hours ago or so when I just felt so drained and out of it. I do not know when the yearly inspections were finally done here but they did get to my apartment sometime around the noon hour and I had passed the inspection as far as I know at this point and so I feel I am going to go for another year. I do not like in-house inspections but because I live in an apartment complex that is HUD subsidized and low income, yearly inspections are crucial to make sure that everything in the building and apartments work properly and do not have to be repaired or replaced. I have a window in the living room that needs to be taken care of but so far so good for now but the window will be fixed soon. Even though I do not like inspections I know they are important and for the past ten years I have had my place inspected and I have passed but I always get a little anxious and upset about it because I am always expecting the worst sometimes and that is a part of my anxiety disorder that is yet in the working progress to get past. I feel I am getting less anxious now-a-days but yesterday was pretty bad for me because of my hormones raging slightly because I am indeed a woman … a woman with a story everyday it seems.

Now with that said, I am just wondering what I will say next. I have banned a diarist from ever reading anymore of entries and I have not had anymore problems with this person and I feel that that problem has been rightly resolved. I know that there are still some strange people out there. I just wonder how in the world such people can just come in from somewhere and just hone in on one particular person and cause such alarm or discomfort when the person is innocent or just venting an expressing her thoughts openly like many others all over the world. DD would not be here othoerwise, right? If DD did not like what I was writing themselves, I believe I would not be here anymore myself, and I have been here for a very long time now and love it much. Some of my thoughts are kept private, some of my thoughts are just for my friends, and most of my entries are for the entire DD world. Like this one, it’s for “friends only” tonight. I have a public entry, a private entry and now a friends only” entry and I am okay with that.

I am planning on retiring for the night shortly so I am going to say good night for now and come back later tomorrow or if I can not get to sleep later tonight, I will be back for sure. Good night everyone!

July 15 – My Life

Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Written Between 2:26 p.m. – 3 p.m.
By Kristi Mary Karnopp, age 38
Janesville, Wisconsin

What has my life been like since I went to bed last night? After I had gotten off the computer I went to lay down and read a while because sleep was rather hard to find before 10 p.m. last night which is not always unusual but last night it was because I was so tired from being a little anxious yesterday after finding out that we were having our yearly inspection with the onsite manager today. On a more serious note, I passed inspection from what I understood talking to Judie the manager. That took a load of my shoulders in the past couple of hours so I am feeling a little drained on a physical level more so than a mental or mindful level if I make any sense here at all, lol. I am also expecting my lovely period as well to be honest with you so that is part of the physicalness I feel draining me momentarily.

Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Written Between 8 p.m.- 8:30 p.m.

Not much was said earlier because of the fact that I had gotten tired all of a sudden and began watching television a little earlier than usual according to my schedule and routine. I had fallen asleep and took a little unexpected nap on the twin bed in the living room while watching Law & Order. I just finished eating a quick supper of Lunchables – 3 mini hotdogs, a Capri Sun fruit drink, and a mini Biutterfinger crisp candy bar, and everything tasted good and seemed to fulfill my curious evening appetite since I had a later lunch around 3:30 p.m. or so. I think will be awake for a little while but plan on retiring to bed on my scheduled routine time of 9 o’clock or shortly afterwards. Right now, as silly as it may sound, I am still kind of tired but not so much as five hours ago by far. Typical time of sleepiness is hitting me more so now than just straight tiredness that hit me very hard five hours ago. I am okay though. My tiredness has a lot to do with my hormones raging due to my period and I am going to not force myself to stay awake. I am good otherwise. I am going to go online in a few minutes myself and then hit the hay for the night to get a good night’s sleep but I am going to read a bit first. I am reading a story titled “Backfire” and I have two chapters left and then I will be reading Danielle Steel’s “Let Me Call You Sweetheart” next. I have quite a library of books here at home … the library is not necessary for me right now.