Despite the fact that I was feeling kind of “what the heck” today, I do have to admit that today was not so bad. I am kind of moody right now and do not know which direction I am going at the moment, but I am surely noticing that my day is not too bad really. My appointment with my counselor did go well but I did not talk about much of one thing — I went in every direction there as well…go figure. After I got back from my appointment I spent some major time with Bing who slept on my stomach while I watched a couple of television programs I had recorded last week. Bing was such a cuddle bug this afternoon. At 5 p.m. my friends RB and JW came by for a while and helped me with a few things that needed to be done for the week, and they stayed for a bit before leaving before dark. I was going to have company over for the evening for a Bible study but the weather got a little iffy for them to trudge on over here for awhile so we canceled tonight’s Bible study. So here I am, at home after 9 p.m. enjoying my space with Bing — a cat who is enjoying his time romping and playing, and chasing after a ball or two from time to time. Bing has been a great joy to watch the past couple of hours or so. Anyway, my day went fairly well. Now I can cool down a little bit and have my space, my time, and do what I want to and have no worries about my cleaning lady coming over tomorrow morning…hopefully. If she doesn’t, that’s okay because my place is clean for the week for the most part thanks to me and a couple of great friends. Gotta run now — almost my bedtime, seriously. Good night and God bless.
Well, had awakened feeling kind of down and did not want to get up even though I had to get up sooner or later. I just wanted to stay in my pajamas all morning long and watch television and snuggle wih Bing but Bing was across the room sleeping in my desk chair so cute like. By 11:30 a.m. I had gotten up and dressed and ready for my day not sure if I wanted to go out in the real world to my counseling appointment. I feel I have been so busy the past couple of weeks that the down feeling I am having right now is just part of my anxiety and depression mode trying to kick in, and I believe it is doing its best to confuse me and make me feel so emotional. I am finally ending my time of the month and that is probably one good reason as to why I am feeling like closing and locking my door for a while and putting my “melt down” sign out for other people on the outside know that I do not want to be bothered. I have to leave for my appointment in twenty minutes now so I better get going. I will be back. Gotta run for now and get ready to go. My ride will be here shortly. Later.