A Late Night

For the past couple of nights I have been up later than usual so being up late is not abnormal in this household, but the reason I am up late is not normal at all. I have been dealing with a cold the past couple of days and so I have felt yucky and tired during the day and getting all the rest I need to get to keep me from getting more sick with a bad cold. I think, so I am not going to say I am over it just yet, I am just about over it now. So I have been taking my late night and using the time wisely, even though I have to be up early before company comes over.

I can not find a title for this entry right now because I am at a loss for words at the moment. I have so much I want to say right now but I do not have the time to say what needs to be said all at once. My brain is not on the fritz exactly, but definitely tired and ready for bed. It is almost 1 a.m. in the morning for goodness sakes. Yes, I am pulling a late night and an all nighter and I am going to Beloit to see a friend after 9 a.m. this morning, which only is about eight hours away from now CST time. I have been very busy with school and friends that my world is going at a fast pace and it is not easy to keep up or get caught up. I do not even remember when I last saw my friends KW, JW, and DC, and other friends! I talked to KW on the telephone a while ago but it has been a while since I have seen her face to face. My world is a fast paced world and I am lucky to keep up to some extent anyway.

19 Years Today

It has been one fine day…before 12 midnight, I thought I would write that today was a very special day for me…a day of celebration. It was nineteen years ago today that I had my kidney transplant … a day that opened a new life … a day that almost wasn’t there for me.

I have absolutely no idea if I am crazy or not, lol, for celebrating such a fine day as today when something occurred nineteen years ago and I am still making such a big deal about it. Ever since my kidney transplant and having a new lease on life – what seems to be an actual lease because of the fact that one day my transplanted kidney will wear out … hopefully when I am no longer here physically – in hopes that my transplanted kidney outlives me in life. I feel I have had my life extended and time is too short to worry about much of anything now.

Ever since my kidney transplant I do have to admit that I take birthday celebrations, holidays, and anniversaries very seriously…and it just has not declined in celebrations…in this life and time. My world, as strange as it may be sometimes, is definitely a brighter one because I have so much going on right now that will and should better it physically, emotionally, and hopefully mentally…

I do have to admit that I really enjoy going to church twice a week now – Saturdays and Sundays. I do have to also admit that I have not attended church on Saturday for a while because of transporation issues or just needed a day of rest from the entire world and the six day week of school and homework. I am enjoying my fellowship time with my friends at Bethel Baptist Church as many members of Bethel Baptist are still there and there are many faces in the community now.

I just wanted to say hello to everyone and wish all of my DD friends a good weekend. I am now experiencing a very nice day with the sun shining, the weather very beautiful, and I am feeling real good inside emotionally. My living room window is open bringing in some fresh air – not cold outside today. Spring is definitely coming and here – finally …

Oh My Goodness!

I do love my boyfriend very much but when it came to calling my cat Bing Noel Crosby Karnopp Bingford Noel Crosby Karnopp, I just about wanted to strangle him and kill him, lol. Honestly, my boyfriend can be very silly … so can I. My cat’s name is “Bing” – named after Bing Crosby the actor/singer of “White Christmas” and I like Bing Crosby and that’s why my loving cat’s name was kept as Bing Crosby when he was adopted from our local animal shelter.

Today

Today was not a very bad day at all. I got out and walked home from my 1:30 p.m. and a little lunch at McDonald’s today with my friend JS. I do have to admit, though, that having to walk on the side of a busy street was most annoying because of the fact that businesses do not shovel the walkways properly, and believe it or not, I called the city people to let them know of my complaint. I am able to do some things in my life and one of them is walk great distances no matter if I have to use my cane or not, but when there are obstacles that seem bigger than life, I do not just think of myself. Despite that experience, I had a very good day, even though at the beginning I felt I couldn’t go outside into the biggest world of my life, but I defeated the purpose and went anyway.

The Need to Rely on God More …

Oh please do not allow the title confuse you or make you ask questions at the moment because I can not even give you an answer except for the fact that I am telling you the truth that my world, as anxiety and depression plays in my life from time to time. Today was no exception to any anxiety and problems I have in my life from time to time just everyone else in today’s world. Yes, today was proven to be one of those strange days – a test of anxiety and fear that really played and I know that I, after giving it some major thought, need to rely on God more that I have in the recent or farther past.

Confusion Played Its Ugly Game W/ Me Today

I almost thought I was not going to be getting any medication under Medicare but learned that there was mix up along the way and it was fixed, but it practically took two hours for the mix up to be founded and corrected. In the meantime, when the problem was being founded, I was so scared — so very scared. The anxiety in my body was rising and I just did not know what to think. Being on certain meds really can be a mystery all the time.