Now


JR and I are at the library right now and I am having a good time here. It is rainy and wet outdoors but it is not cold like I thought it was going to be. It is yucky outdoors because it is raining, but it is not a bad day to be out and about with a very good friend — as JR is. I needed to get out of the house anyway. It can get dark and gloomy waiting for time to pass up even if depression and anxiety is not at its time to play.

Anyway, I do believe that I am dealing with some depression right now due to the fact that I lost my Emilee Marie Cuddles, but I do have to admit that even though depression is playing its unwanted role here right now, it has been a joy getting away from the apartment/house for the late morning and afternoon anyway. Now is now and I playing it to the best I can.

A Rainy World Today …


For the past two days now we have been having rainy weather. Kind of depressing and gray outdoors right now but I guess that’s ok. Even though it is kind of yucky right now, I do have to admit that keeping myself busy is the best thing. I will be seeing my friend JR shortly – by 10 a.m.. We are planning on going to the library. More later…

Good Night Friends


I need to say good night and God bless you all for the night. I am very tired and ready to go to bed. Ever since I have been to Arkansas and back, my sleeping patterns have been going to bed before midnight and sleeping throughout the entire night in total darkness except for the light from my clock/radio/sound spa. I feel I had a fine day today even though it seemed lazy to some extent – did get out at lunch with my cleaning lady LB and CD. Tomorrow brings on another day of getting out of the apartment for a while in the late morning and early afternoon.

Good Night Friends


I need to say good night and God bless you all for the night. I am very tired and ready to go to bed. Ever since I have been to Arkansas and back, my sleeping patterns have been going to bed before midnight and sleeping throughout the entire night in total darkness except for the light from my clock/radio/sound spa. I feel I had a fine day today even though it seemed lazy to some extent – did get out at lunch with my cleaning lady LB and CD. Tomorrow brings on another day of getting out of the apartment for a while in the late morning and early afternoon.

Emilee’s Memorial Spot …


Today. as one of my projects, I put up a little memorial of my Emilee Marie Cuddles Karnopp. I got a pet memorial for her little memorial spot, but I still have to get that finished, yet. Her pet memorial looks like a grave site marker and it looks great! I miss Emilee very much but memories of her live forever inside of me in my heart. I even have her ashes now, as they were picked up yesterday afternoon, and believe me when I say that Emilee came back home in style. I wish I had more pictures of her growing up, but I don’t. I also have a sympathy card from Emilee’s veterinarian at her memorial site. Knowing that Emilee lived a long and happy life (16 1/2 years) with me, she will be greatly missed by this ol’ heart of mine. Oh…do I ever miss Emilee!!

Emilee’s M emorial Spot …


Today. as one of my projects, I put up a little memorial of my Emilee Marie Cuddles Karnopp. I got a pet memorial for her little memorial spot, but I still have to get that finished, yet. Her pet memorial looks like a grave site marker and it looks great! I miss Emilee very much but memories of her live forever inside of me in my heart. I even have her ashes now, as they were picked up yesterday afternoon, and believe me when I say that Emilee came back home in style. I wish I had more pictures of her growing up, but I don’t. I also have a sympathy card from Emilee’s veterinarian at her memorial site. Knowing that Emilee lived a long and happy life (16 1/2 years) with me, she will be greatly missed by this ol’ heart of mine. Oh…do I ever miss Emilee!!

Back Home Safe and Sound …


I am now back home from my vacation/trip to Arkansas for the Thanksgiving holiday. The flight home was nice and it seemed quick. Knowing that I did not have a cat to go home, I was still happy to set my feet back in my city where I lived by lunch time. When the Van Galder bus finally reached Janesville from Chicago my heart was feeling the home atmosphere and my heart was glad even though I left a part of my heart back in Arkansas with my family. Anyway, I am back home safe and sound and soon to retire for the night as I am tired and ready to go to sleep any time now. I have a busy day tomorrow here at home as I am going to prepare my home for my new cat I will be getting for Christmas.

While I was in Arkansas getting online with my laptop was like pulling teeth from time to time. That is why I was on and off line throughout my five day visit. The signal to my computer was not the greatest but at least I got online off and on and was able to get a few things done such as email and a couple of journal entries. Now that I am home, I know I can get online at any given time on my desktop and/or my laptop.

I will write more tomorrow…

Thanksgiving in Arkansas


Today was a beautiful day in Arkansas. As a matter of fact, the weather in AR was in the 70′s today. The weather was just gorgeous! Anyway, my dad’s wife did a lot today to get our dinner done by supper time, and with the hard work that was put into the fixings of the dinner, the food was just fabulous and tasty. The turkey was moist and juicy, the potatoes were good with gravy, the stuffing came from Stove Top stuffing mix but it was tasty just the same, a vegetable side dish, real and real cranberry sauce, and pumpkin pie or pumpkin roll. The pumpkin roll was a hit tonight for all of us here – sister, myself, Dad, and Dad’s wife. We have not had any pumpkin pie…LOL Anyway, it was a beautiful dinner!

Regarding Emilee Marie Cuddles Karnopp


Emilee Marie Cuddles Karnopp has been gone / has passed away since Tuesday, November 14, 2006, and she was loved very much. I have fond memories of her as she was with me for 16 1/2 years before she passed away. I had her since she was two months old – a very sickly little kitten for the first month of her life, but I did not give up on her then, and did not want her to miss on her life as many years she could live. When I took Emilee to the vet for the very first time – three days after bringing her home from the animal shelter – I saw potential in Emilee and planned to spend many years with her – which I did not expect 16 1/2 years out of her, though. Emilee’s life expectancy was a surprise to me and to family members who knew I had her and loved her dearly.

Talking about Emilee Marie Cuddles is not hard for me at all. Looking at pictures of my first “daughter” does not bother me, either. I still have sorrow over the loss of Emilee but I do know that God/Jesus was with me the day I put Emilee down to rest, after being sick for a few days, and Jesus is still with me. I know that Jesus is watching over me and has Emilee is his heart because of the fact that Jesus knows I really loved Emilee Marie Cuddles very much.

Please go to her website at http://www.geocities.com/kristimary70/emilee.html

A Quick Hello


Good evening! I just thought I would say hello quickly to all my friends and readers of Dear Diary before retiring to bed for the night. I am in Arkansas right now visiting family this Thanksgiving weekend and will be returning home to Wisconsin on Sunday. I did arrive to Arkansas on time – actually leaving Chicago O’Hare Airport fifteen minutes late and arriving at Fayetteville’s XNA Airport fifteen minutes early. Figure that one out! I guess the plane made good air/flying time. Flying in the evening was beautiful and amazing…I could see all the lights on the ground from lighted buildings and homes. I even thought that the runway at XNA airport had three beautiful colors of white, blue, and red – Christmas colors practically so many days before December! Christmas is being found by decorations being up days before Thanksgiving! WOW! Before too long we are going to be celebrating Christmas all year round, lol…

Right now I have two weeks off of school. I just finished Business Law II / BUS422 and that class was found to be a struggle and a long five weeks. I did not give up, though! I wanted to give up at one point during the five weeks but I knew very well that if I did give up I would have to take the class again later on before graduating from college. I stuck to the end.

I cannot believe that Emilee Marie Cuddles Karnopp has been gone since last Tuesday, November 14. 2006.