It is now Sabbath and so I am not going to be here until tomorrow night when Sabbath ends. If you would like to see my journal entries for tonight and tomorrow afternoon, please look for “sabbathkeeper”. That is my other of several journals here at Dear Diary. I hope all of you have a great night. I am getting tired and wishing to go to bed shortly. I will be attending church tomorrow morning and afternoon so I will not be back until tomorrow evening when Sabbath ends. Good night everyone, and have a wonderful night and weekend. I am doing fine. I am just a little annoyed with my computer’s CD-ROM drive being goofy but it has been pretty good today. I had gone out and away for a couple of hours this afternoon and found my CD-ROM drive open, lol. I will be needed a new CD-ROM drive put in soon but right now money is an issue. I am very fortunate to have money in my account right now, lol. Anyway, good night!

Honest to goodness I have felt foolish and definitely felt so stupid – even though I am not stupid. Last night was an experience I have never experienced before. My garbage disposal has a leak and last night both sinks were filling up with water. I have no idea what is really going on but today I felt real foolish thinking that people were upset with me when in reality they were just as frustrated as I have been for the past several hours. Luckily sleep had come easily last night. WHEW!

Also my CD-ROM drive is shutting down and not working properly so I will be replacing that in the near future. It is definitely driving me bananas but I can deal with it. I think God has been testing me and I surely have been not listening. That is why I feel so foolish and feeling stupid even though I am not stupid at all.

I wish I could explain more but really I can’t. Gotta go.

Boy, do I really have a right to be peeved and not very happy right now. As a matter of fact, for two days – from Sunday to last night – I did not speak to five friends, and to be honest with you, I am now speaking to four friends and letting a so-called friend sit in her own world. Yes, a person who I thought was a friend is no longer a friend. I have decided to let negativity go and positive stay. This person has really caused havoc among me and four friends to the point I did almost walk away from four friends for good. I can not even go into detail at this point because I have been so deeply hurt and can not even trust this one person anymore, and that realy aches the heart I do have. I cannot even think straight right now as the memory of what happened Sunday night still lingers not far from my mind. Negativity is going to take a flying leap and that includes this one person who I thought was a friend but this so-called friend has really damaged something and the trust will not be replaced because I am no longer going to speak to this person. Four friendships have been practically jepordized here!

I am having a busy day today. WOW!

I really enjoy my privacy here at home this weekend. In fact, I have gotten to the point in my life that if I am not expecting anyone coming over here without my knowledge first, then I will not answer my buzzer to let anyone in. That happened o me last night. I was busy getting some homework done for today and Monday and someone, whom I know, buzzed me to let me know she was here. She did not call me first to ask if she could or I wanted company and that really irritates me to no end when anyone in particular does that. My privacy is so important. I wish not to have a lot of company sometimes and this weekend was one of those weekends. Even going to church yesterday was a decision that was bouncing off in my head to go or not to go. That is one thing about being a woman every month I have to deal with. Coping with it is a whole different story for me no matter what. I am just glad to have my period though. Excuse me guys for grossing you out!

When someone comes over without calling me first, I feel and sense my privacy is being invaded and my senses go on the rampage to find the answer and of course I am moody and just plain grumpy because I want to do my things and not worry about other people and their worries. My privacy is so very important to me. I have my fifteen year old cat to talk to if things just get bad enough for me and my friends are not at home. God is such a fine friend to talk to as well.

The other day I was just beside myself because I have been told by someone that my attitude just scares them and I am scaring them. I have gotten to the point that my world can not just evolve around others and I can not be at someoene’s disposal. I have been feeling that if I am not at someone’s disposal, then that person thinks I have a problem and I am depressed. Good grief people, that is beginning to drive me nuts having someone ask me if I am depressed. I am a very busy woman and I can not be at one’s disposal every second. WPW!

Hello Everyone! I hope everyone is doing fine. I am doing ok here. We are expectingstorms through to Wednesday but so far so good. We have had a coule of good storms this past week and the cable went out for a while, scaring me to death because of the fact that I thought lost the cable box my cable comes from and believe me, if that was ruined, I would have to have paid for a new one. The electricity did not go out, just the cable. The storm that day sounded like it hit the building!! The thunder was that loud. It was horrible. We have been having some rain for the past few days along with storms and that is driving me bananas as I am going to school online on a daoly basis. Even yesterday, while at church, we had thundr rumbling outdoors while we were in worship service and fellowship lunch. I was glad to get home and safe in my own place. The sky just looked horrible outdoors!

Today I just finished a couple of homework assignments and handed them in to class before tomorrow and believe me, I am taking the day off tomorrow, whether I like it or not. This weather can go somewhere else and believe me, it is driving me bananas.

School is going just fine. The weather makes it difficult to get some things done when I wish too but my homework gets done on time. I am havinga good weekend. The only thing about this weekend is the fact that I am a woman and I am dealing with a woman thing right now and I am a little bit moody and grumpy right now, lol.

Remember when I had written this entry?

I do not thuink I am going to go public with my thoughts for a while. It is going to stay to “friends only” for the time being. I was thinking about going public a few day ago but what happened yesterday, I decided totally against it. My diary entries will be for “friends only” or totally private. I will expain more in anothe entry shortly as I am about to eat dinner and I have A LOT to say today. I am sorry it took me all afternoon to even think of writing my thoughts here. It has been a trying couple of days.
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Well, this past week has really given the opportunity to sit down and think seriously about what was written. I have not had a lot of time to do a lot 0f writing in my journal here because I have been busy with school and other activities. I take my schooling very seriously online. I have gotten to the point that my thoughts and feelings shared here would be not wise if made the public eye right now. I do have my DD friends and that is so important to me. This is the place where I can share my thoughts. I do not need to share my thoughts with everyone. It does not mean I am depressed or anything. It means that I am very reserved with my thoughts and will not always share the most private things. With an entry made to my DD friends, I can be more private and more comfortable when the time arises. I will elaborate more later. I have to run for now.

I was planning on returning after dinner the other day to write my thoughts but just did not return! Sorry about that. I want to stay right now but I can not keep my eyes open. I will try to find time to write later in the week – in hopes tomorrow is a good day of writing. I will talk to you later.

Britani18 – Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers. Have a good night.

KBabe – I am ok.

I do not thuink I am going to go public with my thoughts for a while. It is going to stay to “friends only” for the time being. I was thinking about going public a few day ago but what happened yesterday, I decided totally against it. My diary entries will be for “friends only” or totally private. I will expain more in anothe entry shortly as I am about to eat dinner and I have A LOT to say today. I am sorry it took me all afternoon to even think of writing my thoughts here. It has been a trying couple of days.

Please forgive me for not writing much tonight, but there is supposed to be t-storms later in the night and I do not like to be online or have my computer up and going during a storm. I have already spent some time at school today and got some homework done for the day and ready to close up shop for the rest of the evening and night. I am so excited because school is up and running again for me and I am now keeping myself busy. Right now not much is really going on except for what I have already done for the day. My day consisted of going to school and getting my homework done for tomorrow, getting to e-mails from last night on to today’s early afternoon and evening. Honestly my e-mail fills up quickly and I have always answered the most important ones. That is what really consisted of my day. I did not have a shower or bath yet but planning on it shortly. I am going to be saying good night in this entry as I will be closing up shop in a little bit to protect myself and the computer from the upcoming storm we are supposed to have tonight. If a storm does not happen I will not be a happy camper and I will not ever trust a weatherman or weatherwoman for a long time. It seems that they have been wrong a lot this year and it is driving me crazy. Nothing negative is really bothering me right now. I am getting tired. I am going to go and say good night and God bless you all now and come back tomorrow evening. Bye for now but not forever. Good night!