TOday was a great day. The weather was decent but chilly and kind of cold, but fairly nice for a November day. Now with evening after 8:30 p.m., I am getting all geared up for tomororw’s travel to see my brother, SIL, and their three kids. From talking to my SIL earlier this afternoon, it sounds like we have plans for my visit and they sound great and fantastic. For time to pass by more quickly, I helped KAW and her husband this morning by going with JW to his doctor’s appointment while KAW went to hers. It helped pass time more quickly and bring time closer to my trip to see my family out of state. It was not a bad day at all…it was a great day actually.

My World Today



My world today was busy. It was both quiet and not so quiet at the same, if that makes sense, lol! I got laundry done today, and now, tomorrow, I will be getting ready for my Thanksgiving travels, yeah! After laundry was done, I took a bath and dressed for the day. I even cleaned up Emilee’s litter box and took out old newspapers and trash, and cardboard boxes. It was a fairly busy day today and tomorrow is going to be even busier than ever seeing friends, packing for my trip to see family, going to bed early, and getting the bus by 8 a.m. to Chicago. Even though tomorrow is preparation day and making sure I am packed, I am making sure I have everything for my fanny pak is in its place. I am excited about my trip that I am actually nervous and excited at the same time if that makes sense to anyone…lol.


Today was an ok kind of day. It was not the best or the greatest, but the day was nice. My phone rang a lot today…those telemarketers do not stop! I had to turn off the phone for a while just to get some no phone ringing peace. Thank goodness for answering machines! I was able to answer to those I wanted to answer to anyway.

I did a lot of sleeping today – catching up on sleep I know I lost some time back before last week and the weekend’s flu episode. It is after 11:30 p now and I am so wide awake. Could it be boredom? I think so and also, going to see family Wednesday for Thanksgiving is making things really exciting for me…Two and a half days left before I go see family. YEAH! I am, no doubt, going to miss my friends and my cat while visiting family…believe me.

I really do not have a lot to say tonight. Tomorrow is one day of being busy and Tuesday as well. I hope I will be seeing my friends Tuesday!!!

Is Time On My Side?


Is time on my side? I do not know really! I have had the flu the last couple of days and I am still feeling yucky but not so bad. I was able to hold down what I ate for supper tonight but the feeling of throwing up comes and goes from time to time, and my head still aches, and it feels so weird and uncomfortable.

Is Time On My Side?


Is time on my side? I do not know really! I have had the flu the last couple of days and I am still feeling yucky but not so bad. I was able to hold down what I ate for supper tonight but the feeling of throwing up comes and goes from time to time, and my head still aches, and it feels so weird and uncomfortable.

Time Has Passed Again!


I would like to say “sorry” because I have been away for a while. Today, after a little absence from writing, I am back tonight at 1 a.m. Saturday morning. The past week has been a devilish time for me emotionally and somewhat physically. I do not deny that depression has been a part of my absence and Thursday, Friday, and now, I have dealt with the flu bug in this house again! It really stinks…honestly. I feel somewhat weak and I threw up more than once during this flu bug and it is driving me crazy…very crazy. I have been depressed, yes! It really stinks to be down and disappointed about one thing and another – adding up to something that is one BIG mess. In fact, a good friend of mine and I really got into it more than once this week and it practically drove us crazy. We did not go to bed angry at each other on both issues that drove us to where we ended up, but honestly, I thought the friendship was going to be gone for sure this time, but we did not want our friendship on hold! No way…we would have wasted a lot. We act more like sisters than we do close friends we have learned and that is pretty cool in my eyes. Anyway, feeling better emotionally now but physically drained. I am surprised that I am able to write this much in my diary tonight. Well gang, gotta run and I will write more when I feel 100% better. Right now, I feel I am 30% better from the dratted flu I have now. It is a pain…believe me. Gotta run. Good night, yawn, I feel so horrible!!!!



Today being a Frday, it sure does not feel like one, lol! Here I am at home, been showered and dressed for several hours now, with nothing much to do. Earlier today, my friend LD dropped by to give me picturees of myself and my cat, and some read newspapers she reads before I get them,. Today has been fairly quiet here with the television on and I surfing the web off and on. Mainly, my surfing the web has been playing a game of ping pong or some game at Yahoo Games. I was going to chat with a friend on Yahoo messenger but she called before our tenative date to chat and said she was going to lay down for awhile so chatting has been put on hold for the time being. we will later. Not much going on really – just a lazy day for me in reality – especially for a Friday afternoon at3 p.m.. Not much of nothing going on. Andy Griffith is on television TV Land right now – just got done watching Hunter and Bonanza – two of my favorite programs on television these days. The stuff they have on television these days are pretty much junky and stupid. Mostly reality TV whic I do not care to watch for personal reasoons not explained to anyone. Television has become a sore these days in my life. I am ok though. I still watch a lot of it, lol. It is addictive just as the internet is these days and years. I do not know how many years I have the access to the internet but I have had a total of three service providers since I began surfing the web. Those services were and are Inwave, Ticon, and SBC DSL (now). I cannot tell you which is the best because I did enjoy Ticon as well and Inwave to some degree. DSL is faster these days, yeah! Honestly today is a lazy day for me – more lazy than the rest of this week already passed and played.

I personally do not know what in the world has gotten into me the past three days of my need to have vented as much as I did. I was having one of those weeks of questions and feelings needed to be let go before going to bed. I really do not have explain why, either. It is no one’s business but my own anyway, lol. My world, in a personal fashion, was definitelly invaded, and it still does feel invaded to some degree yet. I am still scared of the neighbor bringing up some topics that are very senstive to my ears and heart, even though I do like this neighbor, and in reality (assumption) I think others around here do not like her too well. She is not a very private person but private enough to be respected and cared about. I think my privaacy was invaded with this tenant vut I do not know just yet. Haven’t fished out the answer yet, thankfully. I still feel a little restless and uncmofortable for some odd reason. I know that religion and relious beliefs are touch subjects and that can raise flags in me in a snap. I am still not over what happened and I cannot let go of it very easily. What a world I live in. Not ALWAYS pleasant, is it? Nope!

No one in my immediate family know that I have withdrawn from school entirely and I thnk they are about to know soon because I cannot hide it much longer. I was not happy there anymore and my happiness was being downed by too many diappointments there and I hated the grading one of the instructors did anyway. IT was not totally fair in reality!!!I am not going back anymore!!!

HELP!


Oh my goodness! I am having a horrible feeling right now that is just nagging at my heart and soul. It is something I cannot quiet down in my mind. It won’t leave me alone. Somebody help me, please??!! My mind and soul will not let go of the visit I had with my neighbor on Sunday regarding the war and the Presidental election that happened. What she talked about must have really unsettled this heart of mine. I can not stop thinking about it! HELP!!!

Another Venting Moment – Before Going to Bed


I am going to be VENTING again – after yesterday’s venting. Something came into my mind a few minutes ago that drove me wild and believe it or not, it has a lot to do with yesterday’s vent as well. I just can not go to bed with a burdened heart of feelings that will eat me inside and out. Ok, here it goes, and believe me, I am ventiing once again. I am furious and a little mean hearted right now and it really sticks and IT DRIVES ME BONKERS!

My neighbor, a fine woman she is, is a Jehovah’s Witness. I have not been studyong with her to convert from Seventh=day Adventism to Jehovah’s Witness. I strongly disagree with some of their beliefs that I have found unbiblical just recently. My mind is on yellow flag/red flag mode and it is driving me wild in heart, mind, and spirit – knowing that dear ol’ Satan, that mean spirit, is part of this venting issue. The other day, Sunday, I wish I did not go over there finding discussion about voting and the earthly government. There a lot of disagreement in my head what was heard and said by my neighbor and I really felt disgusted. Believe me, I do not discredit their beliefs in earthly activities and their religious beliefs, but when it comes to serious issues as the Government of the United States, voting, religion, and such, it is hard for my heart to fill the spaces of what I believe in. Jehovah’s Witnesses do not vote and that is fine with me, but what was talked about really annoyed me to the point that I hated the time I spent at the neighbors for some reason. I got pretty scared – that’s for sure! The visit was meaningless to me, and now I know why my surrogate mom told me to walk carefully with this neighbor.

My Day Today


My day was very quiet all day long. Phone did not ring much. My friend KAW called after 2 p.m. this afternoon and I thought she wasn’t going to be home until later but learned quickly that my Wednesday and Thursday was turned around, lol. I am feeling pretty good but the gloomy weather has come to a point in my life that is somewhat depressing unless I have something planned like I did Monday and Wednesday. I have become a hermitess to some degree and will not go out unless I really have to and tomorrow I have a counseling appointment in the afternoon. It is too late to cancel it now and I won’t even though I do not want to go outdoors in gloomy, gray weather unless I have to. I hate winter with a passion believe it or not. LOL I have a reason to get up early and look nice for the day. Now that my perm is going to be a week old tomorrow, there is no excuse for making my hair look great no matter where I go or stay home. I love the perm but not the snarls that come with my hair type. LOL

Earlier this evening I had watched a television commercial regarding the holidays and believe me, I am already getting depressed about it because of the fact that holiday commercials and music is out even before Thanksgiving even comes into play. Thanksgiving is two weeks away and Christmas commercials is already out! Somewhat depressing believe me! I am going to be seeing family for the Christmas holiday and that is not the depressing part of it anyway and thankfully…whew!!