Where Did May Go?


Where did May go? I feel it went very very quickly, especially after May 18th when school/classes ended for the semester. The month of May came and went so fast that it is almost unbelievable. I am glad that June has finally arrived. My summer has begun!


I am having a fairly good day today. It has been very quiet around here. I did hear an apartment door slam earlier today but it was nothing big really. Windows must be open, lol. My AC has been on for a while today.

My ex-roommate called and acted as if nothing happened between us. Ever since she has befriended one of the tenants here and really changed her attitude around me. I did not know why she called but I felt that I no longer needed or wanted her friendship or kindness after she befriended one of the cruelest tenants in this building in the past year. Only if she saw that she was being used by this tenant but she does not see that. I told my ex-roommate that I did not appreciate her calling me and told her not to call me anymore. I do not know if she will listn to me but she will soon learn that she better start listening to those around her or she will be stepping into a big hole and no one will help her anymore. my ex-roommate has caused a lot of grief for me lately and I am no longer going to be a part of it. She does not act like the person she once acted like. She is no longer a part of my life as of some time back really. Yes, I was steamed when she called! Her call was the only call that was not wanted really.

Anyway, my day has been good and quiet. I am not feeling so hot today because of my period but I am feeling fine emotionally. I have been dealing with a lot of flack these days from a lot of people and things and I need to live my life that is safest and I no longer feel safe with my ex-roommate in my life. She has to go and leave me alone. A lot of people need to leave me alone now and that is how I feel. I may not act like a Christian sometimes and this may be one of those times, but if I feel threatened or bothered by someonoe who is not a Christian, I have to walk away and be safe among my christian friends, right?

One Day Gone Quickly


I can not believe how quickly this day went. It is kind of dark with storm on its way. I have been hearing thunder outside clapping every now and then but no lightning flashing. Interesting rain I can see. The phone has not rung all day long! WOW. I have only made a couple of calls today. Kind of a lazy day all day long. I did not take my Celexa until now so I will see if it will work better for me taking it at night instead of during the day. I did not feel tired tired like I did when I took the medication with my kidney meds in the morning. I wonder if it will work best taking it at night but this is my first night so I am going to wait it out and see. I am doing an experiment now. So far so good.

This is Memorial Day weekend so I have one more day this weekend to play and hhave some fun. Now that I am home this weekend – since last night – I can do some things that need to be done. What am I going to do tomorrow? We will wait and see.

I look at my day and it went quickly —- Very quickly! WOW!

One Day Gone Quickly


I can not believe how quickly this day went. It is kind of dark with storm on its way. I have been hearing thunder outside clapping every now and then but no lightning flashing. Interesting rain I can see. The phone has not rung all day long! WOW. I have only made a couple of calls today. Kind of a lazy day all day long. I did not take my Celexa until now so I will see if it will work better for me taking it at night instead of during the day. I did not feel tired tired like I did when I took the medication with my kidney meds in the morning. I wonder if it will work best taking it at night but this is my first night so I am going to wait it out and see. I am doing an experiment now. So far so good.

This is Memorial Day weekend so I have one more day this weekend to play and hhave some fun. Now that I am home this weekend – since last night – I can do some things that need to be done. What am I going to do tomorrow? We will wait and see.

I look at my day and it went quickly —- Very quickly! WOW!

1st Entry


I am glad to be home but it is nice to be with friends I consider my family. I had a good weekend so far – even with the fight Janessa and I had Friday night – and I am glad that was worked out before I had retired for the night with Kelly and Jimmy Friday night. I cannot believe how fast my weekend has gone now that I am home. I actually slept well last night eevn though I retired kind of late when I went to bed. I fell asleep on the couch and slept through the night just fine and when Kelly when Kelly called I talked to her for a few minutes then went back to sleep after we hung up.



I have my period now and it is driving me bananas. I feel so emotional and moody today. When I had gotten home from Kelly’s, I had found that I had blood in my underpants telling me I had my period. It felt gross and very uncomfortable. YUCKY

Thoughts on 5/29


All night long I remember waking up a couple of times in thought about the fight Janessa and I had even though it was over with and done and we had made up before we all went to bed. Even my legs were aching from the walking about town Kelly and I did Friday from 9 a.m. to 5 p.m.. Even Kelly was hurting in her legs and feet.

I had gotten up at 8:30 a.m. when Kelly woke me up to tell me what time it was so I could go to church when I was picked up around 10 a.m. I felt refreshed and ready to get up even though I wanted to lay there all day long without worrying about getting dressed or going anywhere but church has been so important to me so I fought Satan’s influence and got up and dressed for church and went. After getting back, Janessa, Kelly, and I went to lunch at Steak -N- Shake and went to Best Buy that just opened in Janesville on May 22, 2004, seven days ago. Jimmy and Janessa’s boyfriend and a friend of mine, Chad went to lunch and went the grocery store to pick up some food for the party that Kelly was throwing for herself, me, our friend Bea, Chad, Janessa, and a friend of Kelly’s named Marie, and including another neighbor named Blake for all of us who attended Blackhawk Technical College this past semester. Even though Blake and Jimmy did not attend Blackhawk Technical College, we invited them anyway to enjoy their company, and Jimmy being Kelly’s husband, we could not exclude him at all.

After 8 p.m., Janessa and Bea brought me home where I am now sitting and glad to be back even though I enjoyed myself at Kelly’s even with the fight that Janessa and I had last night. It was a horrible fight, but it ended out fine at the end.

Happenings on 5/28


I got together with my friend Kelly and Jimmy. In fact, I left my apartment about 7:40 a.m. to get to Kelly’s by 8:20 a.m. so we could have lunch and go shopping at the Mall, Shopko, and Wal-Mart for the day before Sabbath began. Kelly had planned for me to spend the night so I did with happiness. Kelly and I had lunch at Chunatown Buffet, which is a Chinese restaurant with a friend of ours and then departed ways with her after lunch at the mall. After the mall, we went to Shopko, and Wal-Mart. By that time, which was a little before 5 p.m.. our feet and legs were hurting. When we got to Kelly and Jimmy’s apartment complex, her husband Jimmy and our friend Chad were leaving to go somewhere, but we stopped and asked Jimmy if he wanted to stay with us so Chad went to the bank himself alone.

Kelly and I had a great time!

A little after nine o’clock that evening, we had a house full of company and even Janessa arrived home from work and came in to visit. We were visiting long when I accidentally snapped at Janessa and hurt her feelings very badly. We had our first fight ever in our friendship. Words were spoken that can not really express what happened because Janessa used foul language and said some things that were very hurtful to me. At 11 p.m., I did not feel very comfortable being in the same room when words were still flying about the apartment. I left the room and went into the bedroom – by then wanting to call another friend to come get me and take me home, but by a little after midnight the fight between Janessa and I was resolved and hugs were exchanged and kind words replaced the bad words that were spilled forth because of anger. Janessa and I had our friend Kelly for intervening and helping us out before we all retired to bed.


Before Midnight Now LOL


I have a few minutes before midnight here and I remember last writing after midnight this morning. EEEK. I have not written much of anything today, but that’s ok. I ran an errand on foot and pretty much stayed home all day in my apartment. Getting dressed only to run that one errand on foot. It has been quiet around here. The only things I heard were neighbors scurrying about the building entering into their apartments. The doors of those apartments closed loudly and hard. LOL I wanted to scream in the process but I kept my mouth shut.

For the first time in a long time I will not be able to write in my journal here during the day Friday because I am going out to lunch and shopping with my friend Kelly while her husband is working during the day. Also, a neighbor of hers will be joining us for lunch and I do not know what her plans are for the shopping but whatever it is, she will do what Kelly and I want to do in our outing. I personally wish it was just Kelly and I but it is ok about the lunch deal at this time. I really do not want this neighbor going with us but I will have my time alone with Kelly and Jimmy tomorrow night. At least I hope so anyway. Kelly wants to have time with me, too.

To get back to today – I am going to sign off before midnight even rolls. I will be going to bed shortly. I have been online off and on all day long and I forgot to record all the times I have been on line. That stinks! LOL

I have to go now. See you sometime Saturday evening. Bye…and good night