Dear Suffering Servant,
I want to thank you for your kind comment. I am glad to know that you appreciate me even more. I appreciate you as well and with your writings, I feel so comfortable knowing another Christian who believes the Bible is the truth. We, as Christians, will always deal with other people and their own, personal beliefs. As Sabbathkeeper, I try to spread the truth there as well, but it is not easy.
As a young woman, not trying to hide my cerebral palsy from anyone, as it is no secret, I have definitely surprised other people telling of my condition. Tonight I have some CP jerks but as bad as it has been since the weekend. Despite how I have been feeling, because I do feel a little more uncomfortable, I have ventured to school anyway to keep me as limber as I can during these times. I am not limber enough, lol.
Again, I would like to thank you for your comment. You are appreciated as well, Suffering Servant. I am still praying about your injured eye. Please tell me how you are doing regarding your eye.
Ksmiley = Sabbathkeeper
I really do not have much to say tonight. It is late and I am very very tired foro a change at this hour of the night. I should have been in bed a couple of hours ago but my body would not have allowed me to lay down and rest since I am kind of jittery due to cerebral pallsy. Actually for the past couple of days I have dealt with cerebral palsy jerks to the point of discomfort and a tenseness that I can not quite explain. You have to have cerebral palsy to understand what I am talking about or know someone who has it other than me. It is distracting and uncomf0rtable.
I have been on line for almost four hours now nonstop for a change of pace playnig canasta. Right now I need to keep myself movinig or my cerebral palsy is going to jerk off and on again. To end the night here, I am going to say good night.
My day today was quiet and I took a nap earlier this afternoon. I had a good day today knowing that I am a good person…no one needed to tell me.
Right now I do not know how I am feeling. I am feeling sad and happy at the same time and I have a feeling I know why. I have not felt like this in a while — about 2 months now. Now, those feelings are coming back and I wish the sad part would disappear. I have other feelings of unsurity right now but once I figure it out, I will let you, my friends know.
I have been busy….very busy…been tired.
Earlier tonight I was told that two people, friends of my friend Kelly told her that I was treating her like a baby. Instead of those two friends of her coming to me directly, they went behind my back to her and that really hurt my feelings for some reason. I am not mad at Kelly because she did defend for me saying that I was really worried after this weekend’s accident of her falling and hitting her head on the pavement where she lives, causing her to lose her short-term memory for a short time. I hate it when people go behind my back and discuss my issues that concern them instead of coming directly to me and dealing with them directly with me. That makes me feel like a baby. How in the world am I to better my social skills even more so if people do not treat me like a human being. I am sick and tired of people treating me like dirt. I am beginning to realize that maybe there is jealousy involved here and it is not me dealing with the green-eyed monster right now.
I am not going to worry about what font or what size of font I am going to use tonight. It is getting late and tomorrow school resumes after a week off for spring Break. I am glad it is over and school resumes tomorrow.
I am tired now. I am going to bed and I will return tomorrow. I have a big day ahead as I will be getting back into the swing of things.
WOW! Tonigt is my last night I will be able to stay up late as school resumes back from Spring Break this coming Monday, March 22, 2004. I am excited about returning back to school at full force. I had a good break and glad to see it now gone away for another year. It has been a very good week because, even though I wanted more time to myself, was busy the entire week seeing and being with friends. I know now it is getting late, and that’s okay because I will be retiring to bed real soon.
For the past three weeks now I have been dealing with my antivirus program picking up trojans and viruses left and right but I am so glad that they have been easily taken care of. It is a pain on the back side having to deal with viruses and trojans, but it is nice to know and have a trustworthy antivirus program on my computer. I have thought about it all day long today and yesterday evening about the fact that the internet is pretty much a risky place to be now-a-days. I personally hope they catch the idiots who are making and spreding viruses to other people’s computers because they want to be malicious and nasty and have no care in the world but themselves. The viruses and trojans are the least of my worries really. For the past two months, I have been dealing with viruses sneaking in on me and dealing with them calmly. the medication I am taking for depression and anxiety has been working fantasically. Is fantastically even a word? LOL
I am so tired and yet CAN NOT SLEEP! I am going to say good night and come back tomorrow or another day.
I feel my emotions are on fire tonight. In fact, they hvae been on fire since 12 p.m. this afternoon when I began watching The Passion of Christ. The movie itself was very very graphic indeed! I thought Mel Gibson did a good job studying about Christ and did what he learned from what he learned. I do not have my reservations about people going except for children and kids under the age of 18 because it is (the movie VERY graphic and the beating of Christ would probably scare kids younger than eighteen.
It feels like it has been forever since I have written here but it really hasn’t. I have been so busy these days with school that my time to write here has been limited. I can not believe that mid-term has come and gone already. I am on Spring Break already and I am excited to have the time away from school. Oddly enough, though, I can not seem to escape the clutches of a textbook all the time. I am compelled to read and study the up coming chapters of my classes, Psychology and Sociology. It is amazing that I love to study so much and yet I put a limit to my time working on school stuff. I just started Spring Break officially today and it surely does feel funny. I did not have to get up to go to school this morning. I slept in! I am in big trouble coming this weekend when I will be trying to get back on track for the coming weeks of school starting up again next Monday, March 22, 2004! Oh oh. I am not even sure why I am even still up at this hour when I have to get up in five hours to get ready to go to a friends house for the day! I am in bigger trouble, lol! If my friend, who I am going to visit tomorrow, ever finds out that I am still up after midnight, she will wonder what is wrong with me, lol! I am going to bed now. Good night everyone. I will return to writing Wednesday. Bye!
Before i sign off…I would like to say that I did have a good weekend and did not write then because I was a busy gal. The last time I wrote was on the 11th of March. Good night y’all!