A Change Is Going To Be Made — A Warning!



There is one person who knows exactly who I am talking to today (12/31/03) in regards to what I am going to express right now.

Those of you I know, leave kind and considerate commments, and I appreciate that greatly. Please continue to do so along the way. So what I am about to write next has nothing to do with the select few who are reading my journal on a regular basis. What I am about to express should be clear.

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A change has to be made once more. The look of the diary will stay the same, but there is one change I am going to make for the start of the year 2004. Something did happen today here at Dear Diary that did make this decision possible.

I am a young Christian who feels she has the right to write whatever she feels is appropriate. I do not use profanity in my journal entries and I will not tolerate profanity in my comments section of my journal for reason that I find it offensive and very demeaning. I have my select few I visit on a regular basis, and every now and then I run into a diary that I find apalling or worth not reading but that is very seldom. I have also made friends here and keep in touch with them via e-mail on a regular basis or occasionally. I even chat with a few. I know those diarists I am talking about right now do not leave foul language in my comments section of my journal as they know it does not appeal to me and I find it offensive. I have to give a thank you to those diarists. Thank you!

I am, like I said before, a Christian womanm and want to be kind to other people. I do have a problem with unkindness from others. My religion and my beliefs is no one’s business except for those I have wanted to know who I am as far as my religion is concerned. I will NOT TOLERATE foul language from a diarist who leaves a comment or I will ban them from writing at my diary from that day forward. I had to do it with someone, a diarist today, because he/she used foul language and put my Christian attitude down. I have the RIGHT to write whatever I want and I ask those who find my diary entries offensive or funny, your comments are not welcome here whatsoever or you will be banned if I have been offended in regards to my religion and beliefs. THIS BEGINS RIGHT NOW!

I Do Not Feel Like Celebrating!

Last night I remember thinking about celebrating the New Year and not wanting to. I will be going to a friend’s house this afternoon sometime and be coming home about 12:30 a.m. in the morning of New Year’s Day. My friend wants me ti spend the night but I do not feel sure right now. Actually, right now I do not know what I want to do! I hate these kind of days and the sun is shining brightly outside … why am I feeling so low? Satan is trying to get a hold of me again. Just like this past weekend, Satan is trying to bring me down and get me feeling blah all over again. Satan knows exactly what I did this past Saturday and he is not a happy camper right now. What a whirl! I can not allow Satan to win this fight. I won the fight with the flu and I am going to win this fight.

What Is Wrong With People!

Those of you who read my diary on a regular basis probably understand where I come from as you read what I write. Other people probably wonder why I ask such a silly question such as “What Is Wrong With People?” LOL Well…once again my antivirus program picked up on a virus on my computer as I was doing something very important on line. I am realizing…that I have been getting way too many spam e-mails so I have been unsubscribing to many e-mails. As I was unsubscribing, a message popped up saying that I had gotten a virus on my computer. Whatever viruses are out there, I could not quite explain what virus this one was except the fact that it was not the same virus I had gotten almost two weeks ago from this date. I am so glad that my antivirus program works so well. Once again, for the second time, I was worry-free about what happened since I knew what to do. I did not call my stepfather and cry in his ear that some virus was on my computer like last August when I got the Lovesan virus because my service provider was hit by that very virus.

With what happened tonight, again for the second time this month for me, I wondered what is wrong with people. Why do people have to be so mean in creating such things as viruses and go and harm other people – even thouse people they do not know. This world is getting pretty bad with hatred all around us once again. I think the peace from 9/11 is gone once more. Threat of airlines being used once more for terrorizing people. Now that is rediculous! It practically spoils the New Year plans for many people. I know I do not feel the same as when 2003 came into play.

Oh well, the virus is no longer on my computer and it is now clean of viruses. Thank goodness for good / great antivirus programs now-a-days!! Well now it is over once more.

A word to those surfers … be very careful surfing and keep your antivirus programs updated regularly and when your antivirus program has made an update, do a scan immediately. When your antivirus program picks up a virus, do a scan immediately and make sure your computer is healed from the virus before doing anything. ALWAYS FOLLOW THE DIRECTIONS OF THE ANTIVIRUS PROGRAM!.

It got kind of warm inside so I decided to open up my living room and bedroom windows. Where I am at right now, I do have to admit that we do not have snow on the ground yet but in the beginning of December we did have some and it did get kind of cold. RIght now it almost feels like a Spring day and I do know that it will not last long. The breeze coming into my place feels great and fantastic right now. Anyway, with the flu germs still floating around, it is best to clear up the stale air here anyway.

People may wonder why I am saying it is warm inside my place. I live on the 3rd floor of the apartment complex, on the side the sun shines in brightly and warmly. Right now, the sun is getting ready to set for the night. That is when I will shut the windows as I do know that is when it gets cooler.

It has been amazing so this year of 2003 as well as this winter season. What is winter without snow? Not much of a winter in Wisconsin. That’s for sure.

To Be Cont’d



With this entry not being titled, I thought it wouldl be best not to title this entry since there is so much I want to write this moment. I have been up since 5:45 a.m. this morning and could not get to back to sleep. I ended up sleeping on the couch, with the window open most of the night because a neighbor ended up burning potatoes while making her dinner, and the fire alarm went off, and we had to evacuate our apartments last night. The smoke somehow seeped into my apartment as well somehow other than through the openings of the closed apartment door. My eyes burned for a while … ouch! My bedroom, for some reason, seemed smoky and darkened with something other than the darkness of the night. I could smell a strong sense of smoke in my bedroom for some reason. It was probably because while leaving my apartment, I walked in smoke to get to the first floor where it was safe and a place to wait until it was ok to go back to our apartments. Strangely enough, Emilee went with me in her house and during a fire or smoke situation, we are to leave our pets in the apartment and let a fireman know that we have a pet. For some reason, not thinking straight, I just grabbed Emilee’s house/carrier and she willingly went into it to be taken to a safe place. She was very brave and I was pretty surprised because she usually runs and hides from the loud sound of the fire alarm which is just a few feet from my apartment door. I found sitting on the back of the recliner just calm as can be. In fact, for a while, I did not know what was going on, and I should have left my apartment on the sound and if it was a false alarm, I would just have gone back to the apartment feeling silly as always. Anyway, this place has not burned down yet! GOOD!

Yesterday afternoon, Rick came over and helped me take care of some cleaning. My bedroom was picked up and arranged somewhat. ALL of my clothes were folded and put in a pile. I HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL MY CLOTHES AND GET RID OF SOME OF THEM AGAIN! Thrift stores and the Goodwill will be getting a lot of clothes in 2004 from me. Now…I just have to…get the energy and want to go through my clothes…LOL Rick will be a big help. He won’t let me forget or let all those clothes lay there! what a man!

It is going on 8 a.m. and I feel so lazy right now. After being sick this weekend, I surely felt weak for a while. I did not know what to think. I was so afraid, with the bout of flu I had, I did not know if it had something to do with my kidney. I checked my blood pressure this morning and found it normal and just fine so that relieved my worries there at this time. I want to stay in my pajamas all day long and not take a bath or shower today for some reason. I just want to stay home all day long and forget everyone on the outside of this place, and forget a select few people inside this building.

After last night’s smoke situation, one of my neighbors seemed to be kind of weird and grumpy. Again this one neighbor is someone no one here really wants to deal with unless they have to, unless this neighbor has a friend or two. This neighbor is nothing but a troublemaker anyway. What a person, huh? I still wish that people could just get along with everyone and be happy, but I knoow that my wish is just a dream not to come true here.

Here I am, with no children of the human kind here, listening to a show called The wiggles! LOL Silly me! :)

To be Cont’d



With this entry not being titled, I thought it wouldl be best not to title this entry since there is so much I want to write this moment. I have been up since 5:45 a.m. this morning and could not get to back to sleep. I ended up sleeping on the couch, with the window open most of the night because a neighbor ended up burning potatoes while making her dinner, and the fire alarm went off, and we had to evacuate our apartments last night. The smoke somehow seeped into my apartment as well somehow other than through the openings of the closed apartment door. My eyes burned for a while … ouch! My bedroom, for some reason, seemed smoky and darkened with something other than the darkness of the night. I could smell a strong sense of smoke in my bedroom for some reason. It was probably because while leaving my apartment, I walked in smoke to get to the first floor where it was safe and a place to wait until it was ok to go back to our apartments. Strangely enough, Emilee went with me in her house and during a fire or smoke situation, we are to leave our pets in the apartment and let a fireman know that we have a pet. For some reason, not thinking straight, I just grabbed Emilee’s house/carrier and she willingly went into it to be taken to a safe place. She was very brave and I was pretty surprised because she usually runs and hides from the loud sound of the fire alarm which is just a few feet from my apartment door. I found sitting on the back of the recliner just calm as can be. In fact, for a while, I did not know what was going on, and I should have left my apartment on the sound and if it was a false alarm, I would just have gone back to the apartment feeling silly as always. Anyway, this place has not burned down yet! GOOD!

Yesterday afternoon, Rick came over and helped me take care of some cleaning. My bedroom was picked up and arranged somewhat. ALL of my clothes were folded and put in a pile. I HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL MY CLOTHES AND GET RID OF SOME OF THEM AGAIN! Thrift stores and the Goodwill will be getting a lot of clothes in 2004 from me. Now…I just have to…get the energy and want to go through my clothes…LOL Rick will be a big help. He won’t let me forget or let all those clothes lay there! what a man!

It is going on 8 a.m. and I feel so lazy right now. After being sick this weekend, I surely felt weak for a while. I did not know what to think. I was so afraid, with the bout of flu I had, I did not know if it had something to do with my kidney. I checked my blood pressure this morning and found it normal and just fine so that relieved my worries there at this time. I want to stay in my pajamas all day long and not take a bath or shower today for some reason. I just want to stay home all day long and forget everyone on the outside of this place, and forget a select few people inside this building.

After last night’s smoke situation, one of my neighbors seemed to be kind of weird and grumpy. Again this one neighbor is someone no one here really wants to deal with unless they have to, unless this neighbor has a friend or two. This neighbor is nothing but a troublemaker anyway. What a person, huh? I still wish that people could just get along with everyone and be happy, but I knoow that my wish is just a dream not to come true here.

Here I am, with no children of the human kind here, listening to a show called The wiggles! LOL Silly me! :)

To be Cont’d



With this entry not being titled, I thought it wouldl be best not to title this entry since there is so much I want to write this moment. I have been up since 5:45 a.m. this morning and could not get to back to sleep. I ended up sleeping on the couch, with the window open most of the night because a neighbor ended up burning potatoes while making her dinner, and the fire alarm went off, and we had to evacuate our apartments last night. The smoke somehow seeped into my apartment as well somehow other than through the openings of the closed apartment door. My eyes burned for a while … ouch! My bedroom, for some reason, seemed smoky and darkened with something other than the darkness of the night. I could smell a strong sense of smoke in my bedroom for some reason. It was probably because while leaving my apartment, I walked in smoke to get to the first floor where it was safe and a place to wait until it was ok to go back to our apartments. Strangely enough, Emilee went with me in her house and during a fire or smoke situation, we are to leave our pets in the apartment and let a fireman know that we have a pet. For some reason, not thinking straight, I just grabbed Emilee’s house/carrier and she willingly went into it to be taken to a safe place. She was very brave and I was pretty surprised because she usually runs and hides from the loud sound of the fire alarm which is just a few feet from my apartment door. I found sitting on the back of the recliner just calm as can be. In fact, for a while, I did not know what was going on, and I should have left my apartment on the sound and if it was a false alarm, I would just have gone back to the apartment feeling silly as always. Anyway, this place has not burned down yet! GOOD!

Yesterday afternoon, Rick came over and helped me take care of some cleaning. My bedroom was picked up and arranged somewhat. ALL of my clothes were folded and put in a pile. I HAVE TO GO THROUGH ALL MY CLOTHES AND GET RID OF SOME OF THEM AGAIN! Thrift stores and the Goodwill will be getting a lot of clothes in 2004 from me. Now…I just have to…get the energy and want to go through my clothes…LOL Rick will be a big help. He won’t let me forget or let all those clothes lay there! what a man!

It is going on 8 a.m. and I feel so lazy right now. After being sick this weekend, I surely felt weak for a while. I did not know what to think. I was so afraid, with the bout of flu I had, I did not know if it had something to do with my kidney. I checked my blood pressure this morning and found it normal and just fine so that relieved my worries there at this time. I want to stay in my pajamas all day long and not take a bath or shower today for some reason. I just want to stay home all day long and forget everyone on the outside of this place, and forget a select few people inside this building.

After last night’s smoke situation, one of my neighbors seemed to be kind of weird and grumpy. Again this one neighbor is someone no one here really wants to deal with unless they have to, unless this neighbor has a friend or two. This neighbor is nothing but a troublemaker anyway. What a person, huh? I still wish that people could just get along with everyone and be happy, but I knoow that my wish is just a dream not to come true here.

Here I am, with no children of the human kind here, listening to a show called The wiggles! LOL Silly me! :)

Today’s Happenings



I do have to admit that my day has been low key and sleep is yet HARD to find since I had gotten the flu Fruday night. I felt horrible then and today I feel a little edgy and ready to scream. I do not know what to do sometimes when I get sick because I still want my mom and I HATE getting sick. I have been in my pajamas all day long and I have no intentions of getting dressed. I have tried to eat something but I could only eat a few bites of lunch, and again my food did not taste right. I think I lost my appetite for a while and at least I am trying to eat something. My stomach has not gotten sour yet after the flu bug left yesterday afternoon. even the pizza I ate tasted strange, lol I still feel a little weak.

My Christmas Week

On Monday I went to Gays Mils, Wisconsin to stay with my Aunt Jackie for the holidays as well as seeing other Aunts and Uncles around the area. The first two days were low key and quiet, but on December 24th, I celebrated the holidays with my Aunt Jackie and her daughter Dawn and her family. We had opened gifts and had dinner. Because of two small kids, we opened gifts first and then ate dinner of turkey, potatoes, and good stuff, and of course sweets.

On Christmas Day, Aunt Jackie took me to Aunt Deloros and Uncle Butch’s for the day to celebrate Christmas with them and my cousins who know have families themselves except one cousin. It was a beautiful day.

The weather was beautiful while I was up north. I was able to go outside and visit with the cats who love to come up to the house and try to get in. I befriended a cat named Hopscotch who is loving and a good companion for someone. He, Hopscotch, looks like my Emilee Cuddles but a smaller version of her, lol. Hopscotch is 2 years old. I have some gifts from him as well…because he has claws. Also, Aunt Jackie has a cat named Shaggy (a girl) who became a friend to me this visit and laid on my lap Thursday night for 4 hours. She loves to lay on Aunt Jackie’s lap.

On Friday, in the afternoon, I came home and came back to a cat who missed me something awful. I wanted to cuddle with her and love her, but two hours after arriving home, I had gotten the flu and had a miserable night. But I am feeling better now.

When I go up north to the farm, I pretty much relax and not worry about anything at home because I know that Emilee would be in the best care. My worries were non-existent this trip.