Problems in the Works





An ex-girlfriend of Rick’s is being a pain right now. why is she in the picture all of a sudden? Do I have a right to feel uncomfortable about this…I believe I do! This ex-girlfriend knows where Rick lives, his phone number, and his e-mail address. She and a friend of hers…are nothing but chronic liars and b****** in the first place. I went to school with one of the girls and all this one girl is a big, loud mouth that lies and does things to get attention…!!!!

ARRG!



I Got My Period Today!

I was at church when I noticed that I had my period when I ran the bathroom…noticing that my panties were damp with my period. I felt embarrassed and silly because I miss counted my days and I did not have a maxi pad with me. I had to fold up some toilet paper and stick it in my panties until I got home to changge. The good thing was the fact that my panties did not get too damp. I had caught it in time. That is a good thing.

My World Today

I did not do anything today except go to church with Rick and Jacky. I was picked up at 8:50 a.m. and I got back home at 12:30 p.m.. I got out of my church clothes and into my pajamas, and laid all day on my futon all day long…getting up to change my maxi pad off and on. I noticed that I took a nap around 3 p.m. to the time my phone rang and Rick was calling me. He had just woke up from his nap and called me.

10:49 p.m. – I am still up and it is Saturday night. I think I will sign off now and write more later.

Monday, September 22, 2003



Attention Smokers!

For my online friends who smoke, this does not pertain to you at all.

Today, while I was walking to class, I saw a young woman walking with an unlit cigarette in her mouth and I thought that it looked uncool and definitely unappetitizing. I wanted to throw up after seeing her because I did not think it was so cool or pleasant to see. I saw, in her eyes, that she thought that it was cool and fascinating to be smoking a cigarette. In this case, be smoking a cigarette anyway. My grandparents used to smoke but after some time they quit and it took forever for the smell of smoke from smoking cigarettes to leave the house. They even had to repaint the walls because the white walls turned yellow and dingy brown. It was gross.

For you smokers out there that think it is cool to smoke, it’s not. You can do it in the privacy of your own home anytime you like – even if I am there – but it is untasteful and I do not care for it. I think it is uncool and unpleasant and horrible. Do you not realize that smoking creates more health problems and it is deadly in the long run? Come on, people…not everyone smokes so please do not make it horrible for us non-smokers. Secondhand smoking is twice as bad as smoking a cigarette directly! YUCK!

My Weekend Was Great!

My Weekend As a Whole

This weekend I slept all Saturday morning and woke up at 2 p.m. feeling really refreshed and ready to begin my day. I did not, however, feel like getting cleaned up so it was my grungy day all day long as well as my pajama day. I knew, that homework would take most of my time the entire weekend.

Sunday – I woke up at 8 a.m. refreshed and ready for my day. I got up, took a five minute shower and washed my hair, got dressed in working clothes, and got my laundry put together and done in the laundry room, and did my homework. Rick came over right after work and helped me with my schoolwork. I did not finish until 6:30 p.m. or so.

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Kristi’s Thoughts at the Moment

9:45 p.m.

WHat are my thoughts at the moment? Hmmm?? When will I retire to bed for the night. I tihnk sleeping until 2 p.m. yesterday afternon really screwed up my sleeping pattern somewhat for a while. I do not feel real tired now and I have school in the morning. I even pulled out my futon and made it into a bed for the weekend and I am planning on sleeping on it tonight. Here I go again…that pattern of sleeping on the futon and not in my bed. What kind of life is that? I have found it cooler at night lately, too.

Good night Everyone

Even though I am not tired and not ready for bed, my computer will retire now.

9:36 p.m.

I am sitting here waiting for my friend KAW to call me and then I am going to go to bed. I have a test tomorrow in Accounting Spreadsheets and I need to get a lot of rest. I do have to admit that I am tired right now and ready to go to sleep right here at the computer desk but I want to cuddle with my cat Emilee Cuddles and mmy stuffed white dog, Noah Ark. As silly as it may seem, I still cuddle with a stuffed animal at night from time to time. I feel safe and secure and whatever my age of thinking may be at the time. No matter which age I am thinking at the time, I do think Emilee acts funny when Noah is in bed with us. I do not think she is jealous. There is no reason to be since Noah Ark is just a stuffed white doggie I named Noah Ark because he is all white and clean. I wonder how much longer Noah will be white, lol…white and I do not get along.

A Quick Look At Yesterday

Yesterday, my anxiety was up for some reason. A lot of pressure building up so slowly that sitting down for five minutes was difficult and terrible. My instructor let me leave early.

9:36 p.m.

I am sitting here waiting for my friend KAW to call me and then I am going to go to bed. I have a test tomorrow in Accounting Spreadsheets and I need to get a lot of rest. I do have to admit that I am tired right now and ready to go to sleep right here at the computer desk but I want to cuddle with my cat Emilee Cuddles and mmy stuffed white dog, Noah Ark. As silly as it may seem, I still cuddle with a stuffed animal at night from time to time. I feel safe and secure and whatever my age of thinking may be at the time. No matter which age I am thinking at the time, I do think Emilee acts funny when Noah is in bed with us. I do not think she is jealous. There is no reason to be since Noah Ark is just a stuffed white doggie I named Noah Ark because he is all white and clean. I wonder how much longer Noah will be white, lol…white and I do not get along.

A Quick Look At Yesterday

Yesterday, my anxiety was up for some reason. A lot of pressure building up so slowly that sitting down for five minutes was difficult and terrible. My instructor let me leave early.

Every 5 Minutes!



Sitting down and concentrating was hard to do today. I could not sit foor fiive minutes to do anything. My mind was just straining over thing and then switched over to another. I left class at 3 p.m. and came home instead of staying until 4:15 p.m.. I couldn’t! It was strange all day long.

Some Careful Planning of Change



Before I head to my first class in a few minutes I am planning on making some careful changes for my journal here. The outlook for the Fall season is going to stay the same until the winter season. I am just in wants to change the wording and the look of my journal here for better and easier reading. I still have to do some careful planning. More details later.

Ending Thoughts of the Night



Took a short nap this afternoon and soon ready to go to bed. My hair is washed and my jammies are on. This weekend has been rainy but now it is mostly cloudy and dark, lol. It looks like it is going to be partly cloudy tomorrow at 5 a.m. I hope the weather clears up now but we still need the rain. I talked to my mom from NM earlier today and they are heading out of town on a special, medical trip. I talked for a few seconds to my dad in AR before they went off to church, and I spoke to my Aunt Jackie before she left for church herself. I also remember waking up my friend at 8 a.m.. That was a scheduled call.

I have been thinking seriously about changing the outlook of my journal this weekend. The Fall look is going to stay the same – just the wording is going to change. With Written Communications going on this semester, he did ask if any of his students write in a journal or diary and I did not resist the hand going up and saying something. I just ramble now and then and everything runs together. I need to change that for better clarity and better reading…but how. That is being thought of and brainstormed right now.

Because it is getting late, I am going to say good night to my readers and friends at Dear Diary. I am getting tired.