I am through with my classes for the day. It is now a time to breathe and I can actually take a breath now. Both classes are fairly difficult as a lot of information is involved. I have found myself in Business Law today working on an assignment due Wednesday a summary of Illegal Contracts. Yikes, I have a long summary! LOL…at least I think so. As soon as I get home, I am going to get a bite to eat and get to my school work and take tomorrow off from school again to go to an appointment that is LONG OVER DUE!
I have noticed, actually since Friday morning, that I have not had the feeling of a confused mind. I have been pretty up in spirits – even after the fact of yesterday’s benefit and visit with my friend who is sick with cancer now. I have noticed that yesterday’s benefit put a closure in my life – to erase all fear that was inside me all week long up to the day of the benefit. i have been on a clearer road of recovery, thinking that the medication I was taking for my anxiety and depression was truly helping me when I found it really not the best. I am going to talk to a doctor about that tomorrow in one of my appointments at the counseling office. At least I am getting myself back on track in life now, thankfully. What am I to do? Live life to it’s fullest.
Well, I have to get going to other things now, but I will try to get back tonight when I get to my computer at home. I have a half an hour before my bus gets here and I get away from school until Wednesday. Good bye for now.
I would like to publicly thank Melange and Avalonelf for their comments in yesterday’s entry. I appreciate them greatly. Melange, thank you for your continued prayers for my friend who is fighting cancer right now. Prayers are most needed right now. Avalonelf, I would like to say that it is not good having to hear such news about a friend you are so close to. My friend, despite how she is feeling, is fighting a long and courageous battle with her cancer and I am so proud of her. Seeing my friend yesterday gave me the closure I needed to be not afraid of her. My friend understands what I am feeling inside as I do express my feelings very well openly and sometimes more boisterous than I should. After seeing her yesterday, I know now that there was no need to be afraid of my friend. She is different, yes, but her spirit is the same kind spirit that she has always been. She did look unwell but she had a smile on her face and greeted all her friends and supporters openly with hugs and conversation.
I am at school right now sitting at a computer surfing the net and getting a couple of things done for class at 11 a.m. I have been up since 6:15 a.m. wide awake to the world of the birds singing outdoors. We were expecting snow and wintery feeling weather coming our way but yet no threat of snow has landed on Wisconsin ground where I live. It is wintery cold out and it is dark outdoors but not yet no snow on the ground. The darkness of the gloomy weather soon shall pass just like my darkened days of anxiety and depression.
Speaking of anxiety and depression, I have been feeling pretty good since Friday morning. I am no longer in the fog-like state that I felt a couple of weeks ago and I have been sleeping well at night. As a matter of fact I slept well Friday night, Saturday night, and last night. Medication was not even needed those days, either. What a change! The weather may be bleak, but I surely don’t feel bleak inside me.
Yesterday’s benefit for my friend went very well and it was beautiful. I don’t know how much money was raised outside the silent auction which was $1500! The food, music, and refreshments were great, and the hostess of the benefit was there with her smile despite the fact that she looked tired and worn out. Hugs and conversation were exchanged between my friend and myself and people came and went as the support for my friend was there.
I have to go for now so I will write more later. Good bye for now.