Good Morning!

It is not yet 9 a.m. in the morning here in Wisconsin where I live, but that’s okay. It isi not looking the greatest outdoors where the sun should be, but that’s okay, too. We have had some bad heat these past few days and the last couple of days have been fairly cool. That puts a break on the AC around here for a while.

I am usually not writing in my journal here on a Saturday because Saturday is Sabbath for me but I have been a little irregular with my journaling here at Dear Diary. I am not going to make any promises on having August be a better “writing” month right now because if I make a promise and break it, I will be very disappointed in myself. That is why I don’t make New Year Resolutions anymore. LOL The only New Year Resolutions I make is the ones I make on an emotional basis in life and I have definitely grown up emotionally…at least I think so. These past three weeks I have grown up some, I think. LOL

Since it is Sabbath for me, I am going to sign off for now. I will try to be back tomorrow if not later today.

Good Morning!

It is not yet 9 a.m. in the morning here in Wisconsin where I live, but that’s okay. It isi not looking the greatest outdoors where the sun should be, but that’s okay, too. We have had some bad heat these past few days and the last couple of days have been fairly cool. That puts a break on the AC around here for a while.

I am usually not writing in my journal here on a Saturday because Saturday is Sabbath for me but I have been a little irregular with my journaling here at Dear Diary. I am not going to make any promises on having August be a better “writing” month right now because if I make a promise and break it, I will be very disappointed in myself. That is why I don’t make New Year Resolutions anymore. LOL The only New Year Resolutions I make is the ones I make on an emotional basis in life and I have definitely grown up emotionally…at least I think so. These past three weeks I have grown up some, I think. LOL

Since it is Sabbath for me, I am going to sign off for now. I will try to be back tomorrow if not later today.

Good Morning!

It is not yet 9 a.m. in the morning here in Wisconsin where I live, but that’s okay. It isi not looking the greatest outdoors where the sun should be, but that’s okay, too. We have had some bad heat these past few days and the last couple of days have been fairly cool. That puts a break on the AC around here for a while.

I am usually not writing in my journal here on a Saturday because Saturday is Sabbath for me but I have been a little irregular with my journaling here at Dear Diary. I am not going to make any promises on having August be a better “writing” month right now because if I make a promise and break it, I will be very disappointed in myself. That is why I don’t make New Year Resolutions anymore. LOL The only New Year Resolutions I make is the ones I make on an emotional basis in life and I have definitely grown up emotionally…at least I think so. These past three weeks I have grown up some, I think. LOL

Since it is Sabbath for me, I am going to sign off for now. I will try to be back tomorrow if not later today.

My Journaling

It seems that summer is definitely been busy for me…very busy. I was gone for a total of fourteen days in June and four in July, and August looks like I am going to be home most of the time. I feel I have been gone most of the summer even though the dates of my being gone was not one lump sum total. August looks like a good time to rest and finally go job hunting with the help of DVR and Job Services in my city.

Today the weather is very gray outdoors. It has been very very hot and it is not easy to go outdoors to enjoy the weather. Today, with it looking like it is overcast and kind of gray anyway, is not a good day altogether regarding the weather. I have been in my apartment here with the AC on and keeping cool and comfortable.

Well, I am expecting a phone call this afternoon – a couple of them actually, so I am going to sign off for now.

HAPPY BITHDAY, GRANDPA!

Age 89 Today

Today my grandpa, a man with Alzhiemer’s Disease, is 89 years old. Oh, my heart wishes that he would remember what today is…my grandpa’s birthday. My heart wishes for a lot and yet my heart knows that he will never remember special occasions or dates again now that he has AD. I guess, with my heart remembering such a fine man, can remember such a day as my grandpa’s 89th birthday within the heart. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GRANDPA!

July 16

It is truely still July 16 according to time here in Wisconsin, but truly after the sun sets for the evening a new day has begun. IKt is 9:30 p.m. here in Wisconsin and I am ready for bed now. I have a few days ahead of me of excitement and joy, and I am definitely surely going to be very very busy. Another week without writing in my journal here until next week sometime. I will aim to be back on Monday sometime for sure. I won’t be by my computer for the next few days and so I will not have a chance to be writing much of anything really. I will be in and out and gone a lot having fun.

Who Hates Monday?

I hate Mondays! Garfield, the cartooned cat hates Mondays! Who else hates Mondays? LOL Naw, I really don’t hate Mondays – just this particular Monday, though. Why? Trying to get ready to do things this week and it is just a hot Monday in Wisconsin. I should have a Garfield poster saying “I hate Mondays” because most Mondays of the year I hate them. They begin the work week for many people and for me, I am still looking for work. This particular Monday I hate. Even though I hate Mondays, I am feeling great emotionally. I feel I am in control of my emotional welfare now and ready for tomorrow to roll into place.

Talk to you next week.

Just Sunday

It is just an ordinary Sunday afternoon going on late afternoon shortly for where I live. My weekend is now almost over and a new week has been in the making. Being busy never ends. No one has hardly called me today except for my mom and boyfriend and it has been relatively quiet all day long. I ended up taking a nap between my mom’s and boyfriend’s call and I am now refreshed and ready for Monday to come in a few hours. Yes, Monday. I have a week – a good one – ahead of me.

Last Week VS This Week

Although this week is not yeat over with, it is Thursday and the fifth day of the week. My week is almost over anyway.

Last week vs this week? Yes, comparing the two weeks, I do have to admit that this week has been a lot better compared to last week. Last week was just a bad week for me. I had gone through depression like you would not believe. Negative thoughts were running through my head so fast that I could not control them very well and my negative thoughts just overpowered my way of thinking so I could not stop myself. I ended up being put on Prozac, an anti-depressant, for a while. Since I was put on it, things have been picking up with my moods and attitude of life. No suicidal thoughts occurred but I thought it was the end of the world for me, that’s for sure. I was depressed and pretty scared.

This week is a lot better…tons better actually. Still taking the Prozac and Buspar medication for depression and anxiety and I am feeling like myself once again. I just had a horrible week last week and without medication I don’t think I be the way I am feeling today…good inside and out. Don’t know if I would still be depressed and full of anxiety or not but I do know that it might have been worse if I did not go on Prozac this past Saturday.

I am feeling better!!!!

Another Day

Today is not a typical Sunday for me. In fact, these past few days have not been typical or normal. I have fallen into a depression and now taking medication for it. Began taking Prozac yesterday afternoon for the depression. It is sunny outdoors and honestly, the sunshine is not in me today or hasn’t been for the past few days. I don’t know what has caused my emotional downfall and so I can not tell you. It is a mystery and a mystery worth not trying to solve. I do have to admit that I am feeling a little better than I did a couple of days ago when the weekend actually began.