That’s the name of my album.. i think, or the band , i think… I just know I’m not matthew. It’s easy to know who you aren’t, but really… is it half , or even a millionth as easy to know who you ARE?

When was the last time you took a step back from the mirror so far that you actually saw yourself in the light that others see you in? is it a pretty sight to see? don’t you kind of wanna shoot the mirror? ( only sometimes) ( not cause of LOOKS… don’t get all surface on me!) I’m talking about seeing who you are as an entity, becoming one with that, as you glide into the chance to change it for the better. Do you wanna change it for the better?

I was recently told to reinvent myself. So i got some red hair dye and applied it to my hair which under normal circumstances falls under the color category “dark” Guess what? after exceeding the recommended half hour wait time with that shit in my hair (exceeding it by like an extra half hour) my hair is still “DARK”

I’d like to thank genetics and Clairol. ( I don’t know what brand I used but it didn’t make my hair red so who cares right?)

I am now in therapy because I’ve officially worn out all my friends and now I’m paying some chick I don’t really know to listen to me bitch about the things i used to bitch at my friends about for free. Now I know why everyone was willing to help… (smirk)

She says I’m funny, and that I have a sense of humor, and I make people laugh, and that I’m comedic…. but I cant really pin her down on any one thing. I told her about my pogo stick championship back in 1993 but she was unimpressed. I told her I am the best slide whistle player on YouTube but she didn’t really care too much about my passion for teeny plastic trombones ( or Kazoos). I told her I wrote a song called ” Fuck me or go home” and she asked me if it worked…

hmm… $90 a week. and she wants to see me twice a week? Am I that fucked up or does she need clients that bad? I think I’ll re-invent myself this week and then decide.
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