Wow. I have never made an entry in the religion and philosophy section of the category list that is offered to me when i go to “blog”.

The term *Blog* is strange to me. Before blogs, I wrote online in a diary. I have always written by hand as well. I wrote and wrote and wrote… until I found sharpie markers – but that is not the point. The point is that a blog is more then a diary and less at the same time. There are blogs about specific things… everyone has the biggest voice on earth now. Everything we say and do matters now…

The diary was more personal. I did not feel like when I wrote something that all my friends would potentially read it. some knew, some friends I made while writing that diary and two boyfriends… ( go me!). But i wrote what was on my mind- ALL the time. Amazing what happens when suddenly you get this sense of the fact that what YOU have to say really matters… and here I am typing about it in the Religion and philosophy section of MySpace- a venue i added years after my friends did. I never really took *blogging seriously here, but i did when i had my diary. the difference…. my opinion didnt really matter, because I wrote under an anonymous name. I was.. someone who was not representing myself to the world ion the same ways I do here.

On myspace, I am *Beth the Violin player*, and I have art and music, and i know people from my tactile and virtual lives, and subsequently became buddies with them folks… On Myspace I am one main page that i present every time you come, instead of the happy beth one day, the PMS beth another day, the *so EMO i cant even admit it* days… I dont generally spontaneously break out into poetry here, like i did when i knew that no one knew me…

It’s just a matter of how ya view me, after I make that presentation on my ” home page” that i hope gives you the impression that I am this kinda quirky but cool chick, who plays violin and likes as many colors as possible to exist in everything I draw (except for the monochromes which theoretically do contain all colors… ) I appear confident but not like totally arrogant (which is mostly true. sometimes its the other way sometimes i appear arrogant when i am actually totally not confident)

I think Myspace shows my youthful side since I dont tend to take the things here as seriously as a lot of people do. I miss writing in my diary. I will probably copy and paste this into my old diary. I have not been writing in there often. I have been too busy living my life to write about it…

and for processing what goes on? that is what *talking to my friends while driving places* is for. I blab and blab and blab. at the end i often say ” Next time.. you can talk too!”

So hows my philosophy coming? Is this a philosophy at all? or am i processing through writing again instead of blabbing to a person, I am blabbing to the screen that might get read later ( and who cares since the blabbing is long done by then…. )

As for Religion, things are the same… I am still Jewish. I am still involved in religion and the Jewish scene in second life, I am still *Beth Odets* in that world. (and for all those addicts who cant get off the computer to do life… * GET OFF THE F’N COMPUTER AND DO LIFE*) (YOU are giving folks like me a bad name.. cause

I CAN walk away from the computer- often i desire to- actually) to teach violin, to read, to raise my kids, to play with my band, to sleep, to draw, to (use yer imagination ok?) anyhoo. so thats that. and I am kind of done I guess.

Love,

Beth