Monthly Archives: September 2006

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(think of this as a song…..)

I woke up this morning
(duh duh duh duh)
and what did I see….
(duh duh duh duh)
My alarm clock yelling
(duh duh duh duh)
saying OUT OF BED for me………
(duh duh duh duh)

thats right
(thats right)
thats good
(thats good)

I never
I never
I never
I never get to bed
as soon as I should….

Z’s birthday party yesterday was a success, It rained so instead of a pool party, we resorted to “beth’s rain plan of games and activities that everyone else refused to believe might be the only hope”

I painted faces, Chris playes pin the tail on eeyore…. and my father called bingo. The kids had a blast.

Z started flipping out at one point because he was “supposed” to have won pin the tail on eeyore….. but something or another wasnt fair and another kid was closer or something because they had to have cheated…. and i pulled him aside and i said to him ” zach…you arent supposed to win honey, the prizes are for the other kids, you get all the presents!” He did not like this.

but it all worked itself out.

Immediately following that party, I took Helen to a party for another kid inher class and since theirs was supposed to be outside too, they had instead blown up this big bounce house in their DEN! it filled the room…. which didn’t make for the best situation when the hose pump thing fell out and the thing started collapsing in the middle of the party with all the kids inside.

Not to worry… a few screaming kids, and some parent heart racing later, everyone was safely out.

Last night i stayed up till like 3am. that wold be this morning…. we all know how i get when it gets that late…

*sips english breakfast tea and wonder if it will make her grammar better*

*thinks it must be really lame joke day*

well so I survived the weeked with colors flying (thats what happens when you beat a spiderman piniata to death with am shitload of 8 year olds.

It was a good weekend, I had fun… and just like a vacation it was a nice place to visit but i am SO glad I dont live there, and now it’s back into the week for me (well I guess everyone else too).

Looking forward to hopefully seeing Oh Shannon My Shannon this afternoon.!!!!

OH OH! has anyone seen these toy things that yo put them in water and they become like 3 times their size? ( not the caplets- these are actual toy things that absorb water and end up looking gross and evil) I have been experimenting with a lizard over the past 12 hours…. it’s not pretty.

be good
Beth


The comment I did not leave

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and NO…. I did NOT leave this comment!

Hi Chris!

Bet you are glad that When I found out The kids needed to be looked after at 6:30 this AM, I didnt call you !

And so I just Helped Dad and Bubbie clean the house and prepare for our son’s birthday party. haha. I figured you’d be grateful to have the extra time to yourself in the morning.

I wish you had been able to stay and watch the kids tonight I did not realize that when I asked you for some time to myself, that you’d drive away to go play at an open mic.

I wish I had choices like that…. to just … decide i want to go play sax instead of taking care of our kids. Hope you are enjoying yourself. Sorry that i was crying as you left. I havent been THIS tired in ages.

I think i was just so tired after also having to take our daughter to another party right after our sons party was over.

Probably not an appropriate comment, but hey it’s more honest then ” thanks for the add”. and… well.

It’s all gonna be ok though. I am sure Dad and Bubbie will be bhome before midnight.

sorry to write this in a comment on myspace… seems to be the only thing you look at, care about, or talk about. Glad it’s going well for you!

With so many friends… WHO needs a FAMILY?????

by the way….. nice cd!

-Beth (the chick who is actually so tired she’s leaving a vindictive myspace comment)

(well on dear diary…but i SO wanted to leave it on mysepace)

FiestaMart

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Yesterday I went to a Mexican supermarket to get a piniata for z’s party tomorrow. 8 years old. Can you believe it? anyhow… not the point.

well i the point was the piniata but instead i found another thing to end up being the highlight of yesterday ( i can get my rocks off about 30 kids beating a paper mache spider man to deah on sunday instead)

there were two guys playing live music outside
latin music, really pretty . one guitar nd another guy who played flutes , panflutes, things you blow…. hm.

well one cd, 2 little panflute trinket things, and a stop home later…. I find myself playing violin outside the supermarket…

I stayed there for some hours. It is the first night in a long time that i didnt have to “be” somewhere… Later they came over and we all hung out (EB, Me, Carlos, and Antonio) mostly on the porch and we talked about the recording they happen to be making at this here exact minute…

looks like i am gonna turn up on their album here shortly.

I had a good time. I am grateful.

this morning i said some prayers to myself, in second life in the temple…i typed them out in the temple, though it was only me and Glenn ( and then he left) but i did it myself.

I wont organize or make a “service” event because i refuse to take that kind of responsibility. I built it for the feelings, and I prayed there today, but no no no i amnot having formal services… so quit asking me…!!!!! sigh

toward the end another friend sent me a message and i sad i was finishing up a personal prayer, and he could come hang if he wanted to until i was done.

My seervice consisted of typing out many of the prayers ( the ones that i feel comfortable saying when not in a service that includes a minyan) and typed out a lot of the neat little phrases … all of this from my camp young judaea sidur.

Hey… it’s wrtitten for kids… so i actually understand it!

go me!
anyhow… glad tohave taken that music initiative yesterday… even though on the way out, one of the dudes tried to cop a feel of my ass. (is she kidding?)(probably)(but…. ) (fin)

The Ides

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I got a pretty solid 7.5 hours of sleep last night. this is good. I have been sleeping between 4.5-6 hours a night lately. This is the part where raising my kids from my parent’s house sometimes stings at me. When i am there, I can not do anything that i would do ” in the evening at home” the same way i would if the kids were here. ( which is a good thing). meaning, all my time when i am there is devoted to them, and what i am doing with them.

when i get home is when i kick back and get online ( in second life) or …. well thats pretty much what i do when i get home. it’s a good thing that I have to Physically COME home to play second life. I might have ended up playing second life too much.

haha. and good riddence

the ladder

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I have been working very hard- coming into my own sense of who I am again, as a mother, an artist, a woman, a Jew.

I am a daughter, and a step daughter, (and a step grand daughter) and the mother of someone’s kids…

I like being these things. Every single one of them. They are some of the things that make me who I am. I dont get a choice at this point so i am glad i like who i am… but you kow that is not true…. I do have a choice.

I dont HAVE to take care of my kids as best i can, I dont HAVE to draw…. I dont have to be in love with being Jewish. I dont have to be grateful that i am a daughter to the people that I am, and that I have a great step family as well. The part about being a woman…. dont get much choice over that… so i am glad it happens to be that i like it.

the point?

I dont know… I am happy. I am doing well. I am moving forward… I am probably procrastinating from doing one of those things that a mother(etc) should be doing, like making more flash cards, or gathering more stuff for my Son’s 8th birthday party this weekend.

Every so often… I take on a new responsibility regarding the kids… noow, i pick them up every day instead of meeting them at home. Now, I take them to the doctors, and do their homework and book reports with them, and I am teaching my daughter to do her hair. I am an active mom, a fun mom, and a loving mom…..

(she said over and over as she puictured herself strangling that mouthy boy child)

and i am calm…. ohmmmmmmmmmmmm

I GET IT…. OK???

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no, i am not a complete and total moron. I DO hear all 4 of you cat things meowing at me… I SEE you all circling around and around and around my legs, and I see the frantic running toward the food bowl.

the only time you guys ever get along together so close in one small space is when you are in a group rally to remind me you are out of food. I GET IT.

Sorry I can’t give you the cheap food i haver up there, that will make cat#2 throw up, and sorry i can’t give you the cans either, cause cat #3 get’s the runs…. but… I GET IT….

I get it! you can only eat the friggen expensive cat food cause it doesnt make any of you barph or get otherwise ill… and you ALL know i am leaving the house here shortly, and you ALL know i will be back around noontime… and you ALL had food last night so no one is starving to death!

can we take a chill pill guys??? You’ll get fed…. later! DEAL!

Time Flying

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This was a birthday weekend. And a symbolic weekend- for this is the weekend that begins the “Birthday season” for my kids. On every sunday (pretty much) there will be a birthday party to attend for one or the other or both of my children.

It started yesterday with one in the morning for the girl child (he classmate turned…. 6?) and then in the afternoon there was one for the boy child. I forgot the present on the way to the second party, so i dropped off the boy child and then went back and got the present and brought it when i picked him up.

Zach turned 8 on Saturday! HIS party will be next sunday (yesterday another kid from his class had his party planned already- his birthday is the same as zachary) you know, that kid is a LOT bigger than Z. Most of them are…. Poor Z. ( and he is one of the olderst in the class)

He friends mom was saying ” you should get zach into soccor” and i said ” Zach does not like soccor” and she said ” yes your father said that too…. ” which is funny since my father played soccor all the way through college, and my uncle ( his brother) played pro soccor….

no one is in an illusion though, Z is not a Soccor-nik. He isnt a sportnik. He is a Chess-nik. (and he takes martial arts). Her is an art-nik…. and besides, he is half the size of all the other kids. If he got on the soccor field he would propbably re-play the famous story of my brother in his younger years trying to play soccor….. the story goes that my brother used to ignore the ball and pick flowers instead.

I have been assured that yes my brother really did this… it give me comfort since now he is this big strapping guy… without a girlfriend… hmmmmm. in his defense, he DID have a girlfriend… but not the point…. hahhaa. (see entries from several years ago that include pics of said ex girlfriend)

Anyhow I need to wrap this up. EB and I have been goof talking- and its time for me to take my happy and tired ass to work. be good!

PS- Some put “i am not an arrogant jerk” powder in christophers crazy flakes this weekemd… who ever did that… please let me kno where i can get some of that stuff… and let me know if they carry ” I am a responsible father who will renew my drivers liscence so i too can help with birthday season transportation” powder

adios and shalom!

It is Sticky

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It’s humid again in dallas, but not all that bad. I still feel drained and exhausted. When i was in NY, my brother had given me a seroquel tablet and i had half left so i tok it last night. I still feel cloudy and sluggish. even though it is like 20 hours later. I can’t believe took that much of that stuff every night for almost a year. That is totally insane.

I feel hot and need air conditioning, it is blowing on me but i dont feel cold. I feel clammy. I think i am still sick. my head hurts in a way. this morning my back hurt. I did though solve that problem with some advil liquigels. Maybe it’s pms… how long till the full moon?

Shivery Sickness

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I feel cold and shivery. I called into work. I am not going today. I haven’t done that since… that last time that happened (maybe a year ago). 8 months ago… I am not a “sick caller inner” , and I am proud to be able to have the kind of reputation that when i wanna fake it … i mean when i am sick… i camn call in and everyone knows i am for real (that fake it part was a joke… i’d rather go to work then fee like this.)

can a person drink too ,much red bull?