7-10- 04 (Somewhere it was most noon and I would be there, onward and upward)

Well, since I am kind of in a fuzz of hurried confusions. Well I guess I just start this entry now and re trace backwards Because that way, I have a chance to study.

OK STOP

There are thinks that seem to stick out when I roll the whole event into a “laugh in”. Ok I did not understand what I had just written but to try and restore a washing machine…

I was trying in that last paragraph to say that I was going to understand before I forgot. I should just turn the page and wave loose to myself the actual really that me in “go out and hunt and gather. Let’s not forget in this ultimate MALE.

I decided to make a liest of goals that I had set myself , was to always remember that there. List Of shit that I want to do, no write about, is going to come hell or high water. It is not an expression that people lose one all the time. Here I am , back to G-d’s tangent but either you eat the same, we are all passed out in the beginning.

Ok no list. I refuse to sit here defining the word GEEK any longer. Ijust realized my ansering machine … what was i speaking about? Was I speakig at all.

Maybe I have not directly appreached the depth and severity that the dynamics of the machine suggest. I am indeed at the pool that is shared by my complex. and unlimited phone call minutes. Pay a lot less than when my phone actually did it. Putting it into wife in different order, and putting it to use to get the strength that you… bang your head, I can’ believe it’s not butter.

I am making little denim shorts for the kids with colored sharpies… I love that shit. you know, even being a recluse from the night, and i was followed and brutally hung fro a flag pole or something. If it has to be a national accuracy that marilyn M we shouldn’t sit here all i her candle that burned out more than her legend ever did. I think using a lyrical revision of the song… I don’t even et it… I am so used.

PAULIE has been floating around on GIDY PILLS all day, not because of my clonapin, no matter how good or bad he came into this state, we may not officially be able to pry him off the ceiling. Paulie seems to think about *Ryan* every 55-57 seconds. ( hundreths of a second)

OK… Schitzo… WHY have I randomly started talking to people… just people I know, as if I am telling them something…. I AM ALONE!!!!

Just now I had a halloucination as if it was real…helen was just running , and i called to her but she did not stop…

AND NOW I SLEEP.