This morning around 11:am, Chris Came over to tell me that he HAD reserved a truck for tomorrow’s “official moving of stuff” day. All this time in the apartment and I have not had any of my furnature.
Chris had to be there to deal with the kids by 4, so him and I went to breakast together (in the building where I used to work before it was a different place). I ordered a side order of fruit because i really cant pallet much and if I can it’s vegetables, or SOME fruites. In the fruit bowl was pineapple, strawberies, canteloupe, and grapes.
I tried a piece of pineapple first and It tasted to me like i was eating a sliced lemon wedge, only more sour. I asked chris to tasteit, but he said it was just fine. I tried the strawberries, and by the texture I knew it was strawberries, but it tasted king of likke dirt… and once again, chris told me they tasted fine to him. The grapes I could kind of handle because even though they were a VERY strong grape taste, they were not offensive to my tongue. I had no problem whatsoever with the canteloupe.
After we ate, Chris and I went shopping to get some basic items that i know I can and will eat. Apples ( of course), honey nut cheerios, coke, apple juice, coliflower, broccoli, squash and zuchini, baby carrots, and tofu ( I am going to stir fry it till its firm and then add it to my veggies because i need protein one way or the other and tofu has no taste so I dont have to worry about the taste of it being too strong in the food). ( I have lost almost 35 pounds since the end of february when I went inpatient… that’s too much too fast.) I also got 2 6-packs of the “ensure” drink things that have a lot of vitamins and a lot of protein and since I am never hungry, I can use those as meals. Oh, and I also am tolerating nutra grain bars.
Since the move is tomorrow, I have to finish two rooms of the house, both which will be fairly easy since it’s just different piles of clothes. And tommorrow after the move, I will have a washer and dryer, so I can put everything dirty in the laundry room, and everything clean in the closet.
I wanted to note that my outing with chris was stress and anxiety free, and even now I feel peaceful. Maybe it’s the meds, maybe it’s my attitude changing… but whatever it is.. I’ll take it ( cause before i went to to the hospital, I would not be cought dead OR alive in a grocery store…) not cause of all the people, just all the choices of each thing…. i end up turning everything into abstract math… i think i need to focus on just “buying what i need and knowing where it is” while forcing myself NOT TO THINK TOO MUCH.
and now on the subject of thinking too much, I am going to end this entry, look up a new diary someone told me about and check it out, and then sit down and read. mmmm This is just awesome. 6 days out and Still going strong (last time I only made it 3 days).
“Onward and Upward” (my mom’s saying)
“Be good and be good at it” (my saying)
“If you are going to drive drunk.. drive someone else’s car” (that one’s mine too…