This morning around 11:am, Chris Came over to tell me that he HAD reserved a truck for tomorrow’s “official moving of stuff” day. All this time in the apartment and I have not had any of my furnature.

Chris had to be there to deal with the kids by 4, so him and I went to breakast together (in the building where I used to work before it was a different place). I ordered a side order of fruit because i really cant pallet much and if I can it’s vegetables, or SOME fruites. In the fruit bowl was pineapple, strawberies, canteloupe, and grapes.

I tried a piece of pineapple first and It tasted to me like i was eating a sliced lemon wedge, only more sour. I asked chris to tasteit, but he said it was just fine. I tried the strawberries, and by the texture I knew it was strawberries, but it tasted king of likke dirt… and once again, chris told me they tasted fine to him. The grapes I could kind of handle because even though they were a VERY strong grape taste, they were not offensive to my tongue. I had no problem whatsoever with the canteloupe.

After we ate, Chris and I went shopping to get some basic items that i know I can and will eat. Apples ( of course), honey nut cheerios, coke, apple juice, coliflower, broccoli, squash and zuchini, baby carrots, and tofu ( I am going to stir fry it till its firm and then add it to my veggies because i need protein one way or the other and tofu has no taste so I dont have to worry about the taste of it being too strong in the food). ( I have lost almost 35 pounds since the end of february when I went inpatient… that’s too much too fast.) I also got 2 6-packs of the “ensure” drink things that have a lot of vitamins and a lot of protein and since I am never hungry, I can use those as meals. Oh, and I also am tolerating nutra grain bars.

Since the move is tomorrow, I have to finish two rooms of the house, both which will be fairly easy since it’s just different piles of clothes. And tommorrow after the move, I will have a washer and dryer, so I can put everything dirty in the laundry room, and everything clean in the closet.

I wanted to note that my outing with chris was stress and anxiety free, and even now I feel peaceful. Maybe it’s the meds, maybe it’s my attitude changing… but whatever it is.. I’ll take it ( cause before i went to to the hospital, I would not be cought dead OR alive in a grocery store…) not cause of all the people, just all the choices of each thing…. i end up turning everything into abstract math… i think i need to focus on just “buying what i need and knowing where it is” while forcing myself NOT TO THINK TOO MUCH.

and now on the subject of thinking too much, I am going to end this entry, look up a new diary someone told me about and check it out, and then sit down and read. mmmm This is just awesome. 6 days out and Still going strong (last time I only made it 3 days).

“Onward and Upward” (my mom’s saying)

“Be good and be good at it” (my saying)
and also

“If you are going to drive drunk.. drive someone else’s car” (that one’s mine too…

sincerely,
Beth Suzanne