Well, I was mucho relieved this morning when surprisingly, I did feel better. Depression is just funny that way i guess. A weird thing happened though when I was anxious and on the borderline of depression… my pallet for FOOD came back to normal and i ate haf of one of those frozen pizza’s that Caleb brought over. When I tried to eat pizza before I felt anxious, it tasted like it was smothered in hot sauce. But, caleb said it wasn’t hot. Now, all of a suden I start to feel better and the food that i was eating yesterday is no longer appealing. I did however eat a piece of steamed salmon at my dad’s. I am assuming because a regular fillet of salmon when cooked right is not VERY strong in taste.
I have therapy with the amazing Dr. C tomorrow at 1:00. I am going to tell her how I kind of dipped and then came back, but I also have to remember… this is LIFE, and everyone is subject to mood changes and stress ( most people don’t stress about the bread isle at the supermarket… but that’s not the point). I just watched myself to make sure I wasnt going to go downhill, and Today when I woke up I felt semi-normal. Caleb made me oatmeal and toast. and then throughout the day I started feeling better and better. I even got in a nap for about an hour before chris and the kids are picking me.
I want to write about Matrix ( the anti ssocial) cat, because he is really coming out of he shell. I told caleb today… it seems like he’s MY cat since he mainly comes to me, follows me around… etc. Caleb corrected me by saying “NO, He’s your human”….. how true.
I cant think of anything else vital…
Onward and upward,