You know, I have never blamed anyone for my weird fucked up disorders other than myself and possibly a little on the people who might have enhanced them. there were my guardians who did not do very much as they should have to protect me in my best intrest always. I am not however allied to them now. Nor would I be.

I just cant do things some times.

its half fear half panic half agoraphobia

tears on my face I dont understand.

why do I feel so badly?