Hey y’all I just wanted to tak e moment on this lazy sunday to say thank you. First of all, thank you G-d, for allowing me to use my mind occasionally, and express myself with words music and colors. Thank you G-d for my two beautiful children (and i grit my teeth as i say that cause anyone with a 3 and 1 year old knows thatthey are a blessing but for like that last three and a half solid years and for the next two at least, there is NO break as It is my HOLY duty to guard them and make sure that they dont electrocute themselves because i left the cap off an outlet, or that they dont hang themselves on the shades, that helen does not choke on a bead ( yeah ME the jeweltry lady with two little kids that can choke on beads oy oy oy) that they dont get outside… right now, helen is on the arm of the cougch right out of my vision and i cant see her but i can hear her and zachary is also not in my vision but he is on the other side of helen and i can tell by his little words to her that he is about to “help” her off the couch by grabbing her around the waist…. a ha… yep… she cried on cue, and zach comes running in here “Mommy I didn’t do it, and Hewen is bad mommy” I love the fact that he knows like 50 words and can still wiggle out of anything. Breakthrough!!!! after about a year now… of hearing…. and asking “how do you ask nicely zachary??” he just now came u0p to me and said with to help from me….” May I have a drink of juice please mommy?” awwwwwww ok I am back from that… but he really pulled one on me. he got me all mushy by asking lice then when i got to the fridge to conned me out of a go-gurt and banana muffin! and he’s already eaten three scrambled eggs today, and toast ( its only 10 in the morning…. oy… he is fixin to grow again I can tell… you know i started this diary saying thanks.. and now i am talking about the kids… lol think i am a little preoccupied… KIDS My MOTHER is coming down to visit me on THURSDAY for a week. i expect everyone to be around to like… fan me off and keep me sane. LOL. i will explain about mom later. she’s ok , cool, funny but… nevermind i will explain later. rightnow… i am gonna get a gogurt. LOL
it’s gottta be hormonal, my mind is constantly racing over what they are doing at every second. like…
DRINK… DRINK… MOMMY DRINK….
oh NEWS
Beth
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First I wanted to say thank you for visiting my website and leaving a comment in the guestbook!
Then, after reading this entry, I wanted to say to you that becca really wasn’t the friend you thought she was if seeing you "flash" made her stop being your friend. I’ve had to face the fact myself that not all friends are what they seem when things are going great. You find your real friends when things start going wrong. Unfortunately, there’s usually less friends left standing around you when things get bad, but at least you know that the ones who are still there are true friends.
thanks for sharing the ‘flash’ entry, it takes a lot of guts to bare your soul the way you did, it also helps people like me to understand you more
i reckon a lot of the time we forget that all of us have our gigantic weaknesses, one thing i’m learning is that friendship means through the thick *and* the thin, true friends take the good with the bad, they take you as you are and love you anyway
i hope that i can be just as understanding with you and that i learn to just sit back and take you as you are, to just let you *be*, let you loose as the person you are not as who i think you are. i think thats a lot of it, sometimes our perception of a person is wrong, and we need to relearn the person to fit reality so we’re not trying to squash them into some framework of our own making
heck, im rabbiting on
love you
sez