Am so angry with my Nana. Am furious with her!! She was asking me what furniture we have for our apartment, and I told her what I tell everyone. A bed for me, wardrobe for Lisa, coffee table and Lisa has a desk. Then she asked why it’s Lisa’s desk and not mine. Well… because Lisa bought it, it’s hers, and it’s cutsom made for her. Why is it custom made for her? Because she has artheritis and it’s a special desk and chair that makes her sit properly.
Then she asks about Lisa having artheritis and Mum tells her she has Cystic Fibrosis. Nana doesn’t know what it is so we explain it to her. She asks what the life expectancy is, it’s 30-34 years. Then the bloody bitch says ‘they shouldn’t have helped her when she was a baby, would save the heartache.’ She goes on to say how it would have been better if Lisa had died as a baby, that she doesn’t live a decent live and that her death in 10 years will just cause her parents grief and heartache.
I can’t begin to say how angry I am right now! Who the hell does she think she is? She said that if she had a child with Cystic Fibrosis she wouldn’t have helped it and would have let it die as a baby.
Lisa is living a very decent life, thank you very much. Yes, she’s been ill and had some problems, but she takes it in her stride. It doesn’t mean that she’s living life any less than the rest of us – more so in fact. She lives life more than a lot of people I know, because she knows just how precious and fragile life really is. Sure, there’s stuff she can’t do, like Sky-Dive and Snorkeling, but not many people do that anyway!
She has friends. A good social life. She goes out and parties. She gets drunk. She’s had boyfriends. She goes on holiday. She did well in school. She’s enjoying uni. She has fights with her parents. Sounds like any other teenager/young adult to me! She just has bi-monthly visits to the hospital to keep a check on things and sometimes she gets ill and needs medication through a tube near her collarbone.
But who the hell is Nana to say that Lisa should be dead?!
I’m furious with her. And then when I talk about it with Mum, she defends her! I mean, what the fuck?!
I just hope that Lisa and my Nana never meet. Argh!!
Am babysitting at the minute. The kids are in bed asleep. It’s the first time I’ve babysat for this family. They seem alright. Elliot is 3 1/2 years old and Samuel is 2 years old. They were shy when they first met me, but quickly warmed up to me, and liked it when I read them a bedtime story.
The parents seem alright. I recognise the guy from somewhere, or he reminds me of someone. Can’t put my finger on it. But he didn’t show any signs of recognition, so I think it’s just that he reminds me of someone. Can’t think who though. This is gonna bug me!
Am slightly wary, don’t know why. They seem nice enough, there’s just something that’s got me feeling wary, like I should just be careful. I trust my instinct. They were asking loads of questions as well – where do I go to uni, why my answering machine is in English, why my parents moved here from England, what I’m studying etc. All innocent questions. Just the way they asked it. I dunno. It makes no sense, I know. They seem like alright people, but they are strangers, so am just wary.
Also feel like I’m being watched. You know when you get that feeling? It’s really strong right now. It’s kind of creepy. They’ve probably got a Nanny-Cam or something. But I definitly feel like I’m being watched. I guess… I guess I’m feeling on edge, because 2 years ago today, was that night. But I don’t want to think about that. I’m going to write a private entry about that later. Just don’t want to think about it now.
They have a nice cat though. I don’t know what you call it in English. In Flemish it’s called a ‘Lapjeskat’ or ‘Schildpad met wit’. It’s where the cat is mainly white but with patches of orange and black. What do you call that in English?
She’s a very lovely little kitty and is keeping me company. Am glad for it.
Am glad I brought my laptop with me, and I’m glad that someone (either the people I’m babysitting for or their neighbours) has unprotected wireless internet. Hehe .
It’s a cool house. Not a lot of furniture or decorations or anything, from what they told me, they’ve not lived here long. The front garden is a bit of a mess, but other than that it’s a nice place. Love the wooden floorboards.
Where has TheArtistFormerlyKnownAsJade gone?? Her diary has just dissapeared – does anyone know what happened? I have my suspisions, but am not sure.
Damn these bloody DD feuds and stalkers.