I really do like being on my own. I think I am just reacting to the fact that I’m going through a lot of changes in my life right now and feeling more anxious and needy than usual. Not ruling out a relationship at some point. I think the sane thing to do is go through the process of getting another job and improving my situation then see how I feel. I’ll be around more and different people. I’ll have a little more money and a chance to get out socially. Not dating, just going out and enjoying things around town. Make a friend or two. That’s what I really need. Some friends. Being in a more normal work environment will help. One with people around, for instance.
My second job as a cashier has been nice in a lot of ways. It has taught me that I still have the ability to be out in public. I think that doing something like that only in a nicer environment would be really good for me. Again, the idea of hospitality pops up. I would make an excellent Guest Service Manager. I love working with young people. We’ll just have to see. Cubicle Land also sounds pretty good.
To me, men are like chocolate. I crave chocolate, and I enjoy indulging in it but it doesn’t last long and I end up feeling let down, headachey and bloated afterwards.
I might as well go buy a box of chocolates. They are cheap right now with all the Valentine candy on sale.