The days have been flying past in flashes of colour, snippets of sound and wisps of thought, and I can’t seem to hold onto any of them for longer than a few seconds.

I put off listening to my voice mail at work for days at a time because I don’t want to deal with people, is that bad? Then I put off calling people back once I have listened to them… Is it even worse that I do the same at home?

I have been working ridiculous hours at work, and am still falling behind quicker and quicker as my task list grows and grows, but I am taking deep breaths and you know what? It’s working. I don’t wake up in a cold sweat at night worrying that I haven’t done something at work anymore, and I am starting to just take life as it comes again, one day, one hour, one minute at a time.

The house is no closer to being sold, and I am even debating keeping it, have I said that before? I don’t recall.

I am ignoring the outside world somewhat accidentally. I got emails from friends in England assuring me they were fine and had only had their day to day lives mildly affected by the bombings in London, and I didn’t even know it had happened! I have since caught up on the events, the fear, the retaliation debates, the general life of a dramatic event I guess.

Guessing I should stop using the Him tag these days? Don’t know whether to go with real name or not, not sure what he would think. I have given him most of this journal on a cd to read at his leisure, so he knows my thought patterns these days. Bugger it, real name will do. Henceforth he will be referred to as Ash.

Speaking of the boy, he’s home sick, radiating fever and coughing his lungs out most violently… here’s hoping the germs don’t latch onto me, I have been sick enough lately.

What else can I report?

I am slightly miffed that I can’t afford tickets to see Motley Crue and motorhead later in the year.

I can’t remember the last time we saw a band, or the last time I had a couple of drinks… we have become geeky hermits with our new computer games and no less than FOUR versions of Risk (world domination board game for those less geeky than me) in our house. Classic, Godstorm, 2210AD and Lord of the Rings. As for computer games, I have my pre-existing Sims2 addiction, and I have also bought Playboy Mansion and Zoo Tycoon 2… mmmm geekiness.

The only other pastime we have is cooking. Ash started a chef apprenticeship years and years ago when he lived with us, and he is thinking of going back to it next year. In the mean time, he and I have been cooking every weekend, soups, pastas, cakes, desserts, casseroles, you name it. We have a ball, but we eat too much

I must get back to work, my 5 minutes of self allocated freedom has expired.