To everyone who has been wondering where I am, I am sorry! I have just been so busy lately, I haven’t had time to get anything written.

Life has been all over the place lately, work is horribly hectic and I am completely over the whole place, I hate being here and am desperately wanting to leave, but I haven’t found anything else yet, and I know my boss would be devastated if I resigned. I told him I have come close a few times recently, and he begged me not to go, which is all nice and everything, but I am so unhappy here. I have been for 4 job interviews, 1 was horrible, 1 was okay, 1 was pretty good and the other was fantastic, but the only one I have heard back from so far was the okay one… so I shall not be holding out much hope at this stage.

Things with Mark just go from bad to worse, and I haven’t spoken to him in a while. He didn’t keep his appointment with my counsellor, which I am not happy about, but it is his life, and he can make his own decisions, I just know he needs to talk to someone other than me.

He and I have cooled it for a while, I just couldn’t deal with all the people giving me grief about it, and being upset all the time because they are upset (mark, my family, my friends). I know they all have nothing against him personally, they just think I should be on my own for a while first, but it is so hard, I miss him an awful lot.

I miss Mark too, but in a different way, I miss talking to him mostly, and I miss his family as well.

The house is officially on the market, but I don’t think anyone has been through to see it yet except for the agents. We have put so much work into getting it ready, mum, bro and I, and I am so proud of us! We have slaved away on it.

Had a pretty terrible night on Friday, and I was so looking forward to a good night I have banned alcohol from everyones lives for a while, I don’t want to go through that again, I hate being the only sober voice of reason, but sometimes, I have to.

Suddenly it is 5:15!!