I am spouting loads of drivel these days aren’t I?

I don’t apologise. It stops my brain from overheating and causing major meltdown!

We should know by the end of tomorrow at the latest if we can have our house or not (pending the miraculous production of documents I lost a long time ago *sigh me*). I am still trying not to get too excited, but I can’t help it. I keep going to the website and looking at it. They have put a sold sign on the websites, indicating WE have bought a house! *feels faint at the level of responsibility I am asking for*

What are we going to do if we get knocked back?

Probably cry a bit, then go get drunk and buy a new lounge suite and bedroom setting as a consolation prize (so I can get rid of all my exes familiy hand me down furniture), wat least that will be fun! Heh I might even be disappointed if we can’t do that.

I am focussing all the positive thought waves I have in my power to seeing us living there and being really, ridiculously happy ever after… not easy though, I am such a negative person, although I am trying to change that!

I WILL THINK POSITIVE

I WILL BE SURE THAT GOOD THINGS CAN HAPPEN TO ME

See, I am trying! *laughs*

Please please please just call me and tell me it is all okay please please please.

I will be a good girl all year if I can just have this one little teensy weensy thing done for me!