Monthly Archives: May 2002

Panic Room

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Jesus, if I am going to get period pains, I at least want to get the damn thing and get it out of the way!! Sometimes sex seems to trigger it, but not this time. Grrrrr. Probably too much information for you all sorry LOL!

In the process of trying to organise a birthday party for myself. I got all the emails out of the way… now I have to start on the phone calls Blah… I hate calling people when I feel sick!! But it is a necessary evil. I seem to know a lot more people than I did last year, which is good :) I told Mark to invite his friends if he wants, but he is not sure. He knows one won’t be able to come as his baby is due around that weekend. But the other one, well I would like our friends to know each other I think. If we are serious, which we seem to be (*grins*) then it will be nice if they know each other before the wedding.

Urgh.

Not much else to day.

Except I am not pregnant again woohoo! lol.

Hmm our tech guy just spent a while chatting to us while he fixed Ruminating’s computer.

I said to him “Hey, remember when I told you I was going on a blind date?”

Him: “um yeah….”

Me: “well I am getting married!”

Him: “to the same guy????” insert look of absolute incredulity

Me: “Yep!”

He looked stunned, it was funny :) He had to clarify it again afterwards, how we met, how long ago that was, I like getting these reactions it is amusing.

Exbf’s sister in law emailed me before (you know, the mormon) so I told her I was getting married and she rang me a few minutes later all excited… she was rapt! She told me that I knew I had to be with someone by that name it is just I got sidetracked for 6.5 years with the wrong one LMAO. I thought that was quite clever. Exbf would not be very impressed that she is still thinking I was too good for him Hehehehe. She thinks he and Lisa will be together forever now… funny, exact opposite of what she said to me originally.

Still no solid thoughts on what to do about the wedding party dilemma… and do I want an official engagement party???? I dunnoooooo!!!!

Well it is not too far off being hometime now, I wrote most of this this morning but didn’t get time to finish it.

*grins* Ruminating thinks I am amaziiiiing *chuckles* cos I am so quick on the computer, it is just practice and you will get to be even quicker I have no doubt!

*shivers*

I feel sick.

Damn period pains.

Damn flu.

Damn sore shoulders.

We went and saw Panic Room last night, I really enjoyed it, despite hearing less than positive reviews about it, lucky I never listen to people huh?? *grins*

Just crap.

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Mark thinks I hate him LMAO. He forgot to tape secret life for me last night hehe. He messaged me to apologise and I didn’t notice the message and hence, didn’t write back, so now he will think I am mad at him, I had best write back at some point. Later.

Work has been a bitch lately, the server is screwing up, my boss never comes in when he says he will and things are piling up over my desk waiting for him to tell me what to do with them. I am SICK of IT! I know it will get better once he is off his paternity leave kick, but for the moment, I am screaming inside at things.

But, I am still happy out of work.

I am still working on my Melbourne Gigs site, and I really like the way it has ended up, the first few tries were pretty crappy, but now, I think it works. I scanned some more pics this morning, and I still have a few more to do as well.

And YES to anyone who asks, I have been working as well :) I actually went for a drive with Ruminating before to pick up the new shirts for the company, hey I should take pics of us in them and post them here LOL.. whaddya think girlie? Under the pretense of playing with the timer on the digital camera? LOL

Urgh. Bloody credit cards.

I have had enough of technology for today I think. I don’t want to look at the computer anymore…

Hmmm it is 2:28pm.

The day is CRAWLING by.

My head cold is getting worse, Ruminating keeps telling me to stop sniffing, that I am going to inhale myself.

Think I shall go and find some more water.

I am worried about wedding plans, I don’t know what to do, who to ask to be my bridesmaids, or even if I want any at all.

My best friend S has to be my maid of honour, and I want Anne and Ruminating to be my other two, but then Lana and May will be pissed at me I think. I dunno what to do. I know Liz won’t care, for starters she is in Singapore, but other than that… the other two might get pissed at me arrrrgh. I dunno, I have been friends with them for 11 years, but I have never been really CLOSE to them.

Anne never did tell me who she has as bridesmaids. I am guessing that means I wasn’t one of them LOL… oh well I would still like her to be mine :) She probably has similar dilemma’s as me…

And Fury got engaged too :) Wooooohoooooooo! So cool. I think we should have a DD wedding LOL.

Hmm 2:34pm now.

See, crawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwling by!

And I have nothing interesting to say, best go before I bore you notify people…

Oooh there are 15 now LOL… what on earth can i interest you with????

The proposal!!!

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So he proposed :)

Let’s hear all about how it happened hey?

We were talking about my friends birthday party we were scheduled to attend on Saturday night, a dinner on Chapel Street followed by a few drinks at Bridie O’Rileys. He mentioned that he hadn’t been there since his days of trying to pick up, said it was a great place for it. I laughed and said “Fine then, you are looking forward to Saturday night so you can pick up!! Hmph!” We both laughed, he knew I was just mucking around. So I told him he doesn’t love me and he better prove he does.

So he went to get me a chocolate muffin his mum made, I said not good enough. Prove it.

So he gave me a foot massage.

Not good enough. Prove it.

So he gave me a back massage.

Not good enough, but never mind, I love you!

So we got undressed and went to bed, and I gave him a hug and said good night, it was about 10:30pm.

I am just drifiting off to sleep when I hear my name, very softly.

“mmm hmmm?”

“Would asking you to marry me, prove that I love you?”

I went silent, I didn’t know what to say!!!

Me: “That depends!”

Him: “on what?”

Me: “On whether you are asking cos you want to prove you love me or if you are asking because you want to marry me.”

Him: ” I really want to marry you!”

Me: “Then yesssss!!!!! It would prove it!”

Him: He then said DXXXXX XXXXXXXXXXX will you marry me?”

Me: “YES!”

We both started laughing and hugging each other. He said I am sorry I don’t have a ring, and it isn’t a romantic proposal on the beach, I assured him that was fine, I didn’t care!

I then pointed out to him that you cannot get much more romantic than proposing in the dark, with our back to each other, half naked, with an erection *giggles* He saw my point…

At this point, my mobile rang. It was about 10:45pm, bloody exbf. He wanted to thank me for leaving his name on my car as a registered driver cos he still gets his rating one. He waffled ONNNN and ONNNNN until he realised i wasn’t responding much. “Are you pissed off? Have I interrupted something?”

I said “Well we were in the middle of something”

He laughed

Me: “NO, not what you are thinking!”

Him: “Oh you two having a domestic?”

Me: “Quite the opposite”

Him: “Well I will let you get back to your proposing”

Me: “Mmmm Hmmmm”

He laughs his ass off.

I have no idea if he took me seriously or not, or if he thought my muttering was sarcastic. Oh well, either way.

Friday I woke up feeling like crap as we had been awake half the night talking and, of course… “making lurrrrrrrve”. SO I called in sick, I was getting the flu again anyways. Mark called in sick too and we lounged in bed for a while, then decided to go window shopping for a ring. He asked if I would prefer to look with him, or if I wanted him to surprise me. Given I don’t wear jewelry much, I figured he would have no idea of my taste, so we went together.

We went to Highpoint and looked in the 30 jeweller’s they have there. I only tried on 2 rings. I loved the first one I picked, but it was very traditional, except for the white gold, then Mark found one he liked and I fell in love with it, he insisted on buying it then and there!! Here it is :)



I am not very good at taking photos of things like this, I get too much glare on the diamonds and not enough light, I suck!!

We told Mark’s mum and his grandparents when we got back to his house, they were stoked! Mum sounded all teary on the phone when I told her. I sent my dad and SMS, he didn’t write back.

Bro organised a party with all of his friends to come over on Friday night and he lashed out on alcohol. I was feeling a little better, so I had a great night with them.

And may I say, the boys from .hinge are the best guys in the world. They dedicated songs to us, they signed a Happy Engagement CD, they left congratulations messages on their website guestbook, they rock!! I love them. We asked them to play at our Halloween party this year too :)

Saturday night and Sunday I was sick as a dog… I had to give a miss to the Bridi’es part of the night, I was coughing too much and dinner took forever. They staff at Kush were HOPELESS! Fucking yuppie places.

Anyhoo, work beckons.

NEWS

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Hmmm. Guess What?



Yep.

We are engaged *grin*

I shall put the whole story in another time, when he isn’t sitting here looking over my shoulder laughing at me!!

It is quite amusing…

I didn’t go to work today. Felt like shit this morning, even though I was very excited, so we went ring shopping. Photo to follow on Monday!!!!!

Love to all!!

!!



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Not my thoughts today

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GREAT TRUTHS ABOUT LIFE THAT LITTLE CHILDREN HAVE LEARNED

1) No matter how hard you try, you can’t baptize cats.

2) When your Mom is mad at your Dad, don’t let her brush your hair.

3) If your sister hits you, don’t hit her back. They always catch the second person.

4) Never ask your 3-year old brother to hold a tomato.

5) You can’t trust dogs to watch your food.

6) Don’t sneeze when someone is cutting your hair.

7) Never hold a Dust-Buster and a cat at the same time.

8) You can’t hide a piece of broccoli in a glass of milk.

9) Don’t wear polka-dot underwear under white shorts.

10) The best place to be when you’re sad is Grandma’s lap.



GREAT TRUTHS ABOUT LIFE THAT ADULTS HAVE LEARNED

1) Raising teenagers is like nailing Jell-O to a tree.

2) Wrinkles don’t hurt.

3) Families are like fudge . . . mostly sweet, with a few nuts.

4) Today’s mighty oak is just yesterday’s nut that held its ground.

5) Laughing is good exercise. It’s like jogging on the inside.

6) Middle age is when you choose your cereal for the fiber, not the toy.



GREAT TRUTHS ABOUT GROWING OLD

1) Growing old is mandatory; growing up is optional.

2) Forget the health food. I need all the preservatives I can get.

3) When you fall down, you wonder what else you can do while you’re down there.

4) You’re getting old when you get the same sensation from a rocking chair that you once got from a roller coaster.

5) It’s frustrating when you know all the answers, but nobody bothers to ask you the questions.

6) Time may be a great healer, but it’s a lousy beautician.

7) Wisdom comes with age, but sometimes age comes alone.

THE FOUR STAGES OF LIFE

1) You believe in Santa Claus.

2) You don’t believe in Santa Claus.

3) You are Santa Claus.

4) You look like Santa Claus.

SUCCESS

At age 4 success is . . . . not peeing in your pants.

At age 12 success is . . . having friends.

At age 16 success is . . . having a drivers license.

At age 20 success is . . . having sex.

At age 35 success is . . . having money.

At age 50 success is . . . having money.

At age 60 success is . . . having sex.

At age 70 success is . . . having a drivers license.

At age 75 success is . . . having friends.

At age 80 success is . . . not peeing in your pants.

Boring Entry

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He asked me how big I want my engagement ring to be last night LOL. I told him I don’t like gold jewelry, I don’t like diamonds and I don’t like big gaudy things. LOL made it esay and cheap for him LOL… well maybe not easy!! We were only mucking around though, and we were talking in the future, once we have a house etc, he said the next step then would be how big the engagement ring had to be!! So I don’t think he will be asking me any time soon… and that is a good thing I think. We have still only been together a mere few months.

Today is horribly boring.

I found a really cool free message board provider, so I startedmy own message board. I am finally getting started on my new Melbourne Gig Guide website, I have a lot of ideas I want to start on, but it is hard to find the time. I need to jump on Mark’s computer to do it really.

I have just about finished my trendy price list, I hope they let me print it in colour, it is so much better that way. I made it look so cool! I am not usually terribly proud of my work, but hey, I think this time I did really well.

Now if my boss would just show up sometime today. Apparently the new baby wasn’t very well behaved last night and he is tired LOL.

Oh well back to work, I have nothing of great value to impart today and a lot of work to do.

Marriage?

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Hmmm. I got my hair done on Friday night, got a few inches chopped off and some whitish tips put through it, took an hour and a half, but I figured I only go annually, so it wasn’t too bad. I felt kinda spolit spending $80 on a hair cut/dye, but again, it is only like once a year I actually do it!

We went to the Espy afterwards to see FSD again, now known as just FS, they have dropped the Deflection part. Ran into a bunch of people I know off the net, and message boards etc, so was a really good night. They played my song (yiippppeee) Zeek, the singer even acknowledged me, so I was pretty happy with that. It just suddenly occurred to me, that anyone searching for those band names could find this journal… arrrgh, I don’t want that to happen, I know too many people who might search for them. *runs off to see if her diary gets hit by people looking for Melbourne bands*

*Is satisfied that you don’t find her this way*

Good-o.

If you search for particular venue’s and band names, it finds them… oh well so be it, they will know they have a nut bag for a fan.

Mark and I stayed up late on Saturday night talking again, for hours. He was telling me a lot of stories from his past, about ex-friends, fucked up family life, and a lot of bad things he went through. It made me sad, I was just holding him with my head on his shoulder, and my mouth blurted out, without my brain thinking, “I want to marry you so much”. He laughed really softly. Then went silent, I was curious what he was thinking about. Eventually he said, “I have a dilemma”. I asked what, he said, I have to ask someone something, have to get the protocol right before, well… and he wouldn’t say anymore. Then he said, “you have given me enough hints, like birthday presents, and things I know you like”. By this stage I was all ummm, keh? What? But he started on another topic then, about flowers he knows I like or something. I know he was trying to sidetrack me from what he didn’t want to talk about yet… he then changed to houses, and living together again.

So the upshot? I think he will ask me… maybe he meant my birthday??? Oh I dunno, I am not going to push it, I have no reason to, I am so happy with him, and excited, the suspense is amazing :) I am sitting here thinking of names we could pick as a surname… I am searching danish dictionaries for words that will mean something to us, going to do the Celtic ones too… but I am not counting my chickens before they hatch…

I finished all the edges of the jigsaw last night :)

More tests

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HappilyBleeding is responsible for my taking more tests this time. I am so bored, it is 4:22pm and I just made an appointment to get my hair cut tonight, and I am thinking about foils again, blonde and red again I daresay, but I am still assessing if I can afford the $80 odd it is going to cost me, but I definitely need a hair CUT at least, I might bail on the colour though.

God this is a girly entry for me!! LOL.

Jess got her liscence woohoo… she SMS’d me before. She and bro are fighting at the moment, but he won’t tell me why.

Mum got her doc results back, it isn’t MS thank god.

I added a gig guide link at the bottom which I am working on updating as often as possible.

Fuck it, back to work.

It hurts sometimes

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Mum is looking around at places to live, just in case things don’t work out, it is so sad. They were so happy, and now it is all in ruins, just because of alcohol (well and childhood traumas, but mainly it all came out as a result of alcohol). Her bf has started counselling and is beginning to understand things, but mum doesn’t know if things can ever be as good again, or even close. *sighs*

I am so in love with the Termite ad that Gold 104.3 play… They luck to munch on your house for lunch… *laughs* Ruminating is laughing at me cos I turn the radio up whenevr the ad comes on. Apparently we have a termite plague in Melbourne, hope they stay out of my floorboards!! Hehe

We got our gas bill last night, and shuddered at what the total would be, now that ANgus is gone, and he uses the heater all the time, which leaves us stuck with the bill. Opened it up. $16.54. Keh?? Huh?? WTF?? Sure enough, they think we only used 4 cubic metres of gas in the last 2 months, as opposed to the 150 we used over Summer… I think NOT!! But we checked the meter and sure enough, it was correct. The meter must have stopped at some point and then kicked itself into gear again, but I won’t complain, gives us a little extra in the budget for going to the Espy tonight!

*shivers*

I don’t know why, maybe a goose is laying eggs on my grave or something.

*lazily floats around the room*

Is anyone here?

I guess Sez was doing a catch up session on my entries, a few comments here and there LOL.

*sighs*

Why is life so hard for the good people in this world?

Netball was terrible last night, played 1 player short again and got our asses kicked, and I had to do my quarter stint as centre, which I hate. And I had to defend, I cannot defend. I don’t want to play anymore, but I cannot think of anything else to do instead, I just don’t like/am no good at SPORT!!

Nearly halfway through the day, thank fuck.

I am uninspired as usual, I think I must inspire myself over the weekend to do something good.

I am seeing J on Sunday I think, first time since I slept with him. I told Mark I would prefer if he didn’t come as it may be a bit awkward, he pretended to be pissed at me, but he was really fine, said he trusts me and so long as I am happy with him 100% and he knows that, then I can see whoever I like.

Chatted to DJ yesterday too, was giving him shit about not being able to satisfy me *LMAO* he apologised, asked when we can meet to make it up to me. I told him I am not on the market anymore, in love again. He found it odd that I would dump exbf just to go straight into another relationship. I explained I wasn’t looking for something this serious, but it just found me.

Well work beckons. I have energy now I ate my chocolate covered muesli and fruit slice LOL.

Jeff Kennett, John Howard, fuck em.

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Only 8:46am and I am already HUNGRY *grins*. Not unusual for me I guess.

I am tired too. Why cannot Mark and I resist each other when it is way past our bedtime? We say for an hour as we lie there and hold each other that we are just going to go to sleep, no funny business tonight, then next thing I know, we’re naked. *sighs* just as well it is always GOOOOOOD! *laughs her little butt off*

We watched High Fidelity on video last night, was pretty good! We both enjoyed it, I have been meaning to see it for so long, is always nice when the anticipation turns out to have been worthwhile.

I have to go and start collecting money for a present for my boss and the baby. I hate asking people to donate, especially when I know some of the people here don’t like him. But it is something that falls to me as his assistant I guess.

I am really pissed off with the amount of our federal budget allocated to “Border Protection” it is ridiculous. We have so much room and accept so few immigrants compared to other continents. Our state budget is much more acceptable. 900 odd new teachers and a similarly high number of new nurses. Both areas that needed work after Jeff Kennett’s giant fuck ups in that area. And yes I have a very personal distate for the man. He took over as Chairman of the last company I worked at, and he was rude, arrogant, and… and… and… *sobs at the memory* he wouldn’t leet me have a desk. Said my little half a table was plenty of room for me ad my computer and my files and my paperwork. Basically he is a very little man trapped in the body of a reasonable adult. Fucking moron. My supervisor was trying to arrange a photo shoot to commemorate the joining of his and our bosses together in business. He didn’t know his way around Melbourne! For our “biggest advocate as a city” he couldn’t get to the Sheraton steps, because, HIS LIMO DRIVER COULDN”T DRIVE THERE! He would have to walk. Yeah damn right he won’t walk in public, he would be egged and stoned to oblivion! Fucking wanker.

Agh that’s all I have to say about that.

(Yes I watched the end of Forrest GUmp the other night again haha).