I wasn’t going to write anymore today. I shouldn’t. I should stop worrying about it.

He wasn’t with her last night, he just couldn’t be bothered calling me back. Fuck him. This is so fucking stupid. I was over him before, why can’t I forget him now??? Grrr at self.

I spend so much time chatting to this guy in US, he is so fucking cool. Pity he is in US.. lol.. and has a girlfriend… and etc etc etc Just kidding. I am not interested in anyone, with the exception of exbf at the moment. I try looking when I go out, and I make unfair comparisons. HE JUST WASN’T THAT FUCKING GOOD. Why doe she make everyone else look bad?? Waaaaaaah!

I am such a whinger.

Blah.

I feel like screaming some days, todayis one of them. I have to go Christmas Shopping after work, and I have to go alone. I don’t want to be alone doing it, that is so cold. It will be hard… I miss him a lot.