I am at home. I just got out of the shower, I feel a little bit better now, but not much. I went to the doctor this morning, stupid Arab or whatever he was, made me cry. Well I think it was me that made me cry, but he set it off… My flu is back, I went to see if I could get another round of antibiotics, no dice. I thought while I am here, I’ll try talking to a doctor about my sleeping problems… bad idea. Now I am supposedly in need of a psychiatrist because I cannot sleep. Last night I slept for about 10 minutes, woke up for about 20, slept for 15, woke up for 15, and so on and so on. I just cannot shut down my brain. Even if I don’t think about anything in particular, a song will get stuck in my head and I won’t be able to sleep. I used to be able to just control my breathing until I slept, In 2 3 4, Out 2 3 4 etc, counting them put me to sleep, now, nothing does. I am an absolute mess this morning.

I am still debating the merits of atually going in to work… it all just seems too hard for me this morning. I don’t know if I can face getting dressed in work clothes, driving, talking, working, you know the whole deal.

I just wanna crawl back under my rock and hide forever… seeya.

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“Americans have different ways of saying things. They say “elevator”, we say “lift” … they say “President”, we say “stupid psychopathic git.”

Alexei Sayle

BRING BACK ALEXEI SAYLE!!!!!